Let Me Love You Again
Chapter 86

Nate

I followed Maya, Axel in my arms who was watching carefully the movements of the gynecologist around Maya, when it was his mother, Axel became possessive, perhaps too much. Lately, I had noticed that he had started to do it with me and with my parents, it just meant that he loved us and that he was possessive of us.

At that moment he was with his mother because he saw a stranger lurking near her and was ready to attack like a lion. I was so proud of him.

The doctor sat in front of Maya’s open legs, at that moment she was right in front of that paradise that made me lose my mind every night. I saw her taking what was a giant p***s and squinting at my eyes as Maya looked up at the ceiling, almost bored with that wait.

The doctor covered the giant p***s with an equally giant condom. No, that doesn’t go inside, does it?

I blinked several times when the doctor laid a hand on Maya’s belly.

“Okay now try to relax,” she said

“Is that thing going in?” I asked.

Maya looked at me, her eyes glowing brightly as the doctor chuckled, “Yes, Mr Dare, first we’ll do an internal ultrasound and, based on the size of the fetus, we’ll see whether to proceed with an external or not,” she said calmly.

I bleached and looked at the giant p***s again as Maya laughed, I looked over at her and frowned as she bit her lower l*p to try to hold back the laughter until she squinted her eyes and then opened them wide. Now you’re not laughing, mon amour?

I looked at the gynaecologist who had stuffed that giant p***s inside Maya’s gorgeous, cosy p***y. She pressed a few buttons on the ultrasound and a blurry image appeared.

I held my breath while Axel held onto me.

“There it is,” said the doctor, pointing to a spot where you could see a white shape, it was too blurry to be recognized, or at least for me, “Thirteen weeks,” said the thoughtful doctor, “We can see it with 3D.” continued to pull out the giant p***s and move the ultrasound.

She took another machine, more modern and bigger and she approached it “Ok Maya, you can lower your legs and uncover your belly,” said the doctor, taking the ultrasound and turning on the screen.

Maya did as she said and I got even closer. The gynaecologist sprayed fluid on Maya’s belly and then put the ultrasound on it.

A sharper image appeared on the screen and I almost fainted. You could see the child, our child. You could see the little arms and legs, the head was still very deformed but the shape had already been created, I did not notice that I had begun to cry until Axel laid a hand on my cheek.

“No cry Daddy,” he said with his sweet voice.

My heart almost gave in to his sweetness and empathy. I turned my gaze to him and embraced him tightly, not wanting to leave him. Maya looked at the screen while the doctor was talking but I wasn’t listening, my ears were completely muffled until a sound filled them.

A rhythmic Tum-Tum that exploded in the room, a rhythmic and strong beat that resounded in my ears and went in rhythm with mine.

Okay, I was going to pass out, my breath was cut through my throat, and I was firmly convinced that my whole body had stopped working completely.

I stood still staring at the screen, with that fabulous beat that kept ringing in my ears.

“Oh, there’s s*x,” said the doctor, “Do you want to know, or would you rather I have it for a gender party?” she asked.

“Now,” Maya and I said together

“Now,” Axel repeated in the same tone.

We all laughed and then looked back at the screen.

“There she is,” the doctor said, pointing her finger at the screen, “A beautiful girl,” she finally said.

I was going to faint, I felt it. A girl.

Maya remained mute, as I remained while the gynaecologist printed the ultrasound and prepared the mother’s passport for Maya. I stood still as my beautiful wife, the mother of my children, stood up and dressed.

Axel had remained attached to me and I had no intention of moving away from him, this little creature at that moment was my lifeline and kept me from collapsing.

I stopped talking, I just followed Maya when the doctor prescribed her vitamins and set her up for her next appointment.

Axel and I were attacked as we were leaving the building. I wasn’t answering. I just followed Maya holding my hand while she had the ultrasound in the other.

A female.

Our family was expanding and I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t ready for a girl. I could handle a boy, when Axel grew up, I would teach him to piss standing up wherever he went, but a girl? And if it was as complicated as Maya? Axel and I would have been f****d. s**t up to our necks.

Maya took my car keys out of my pocket, and Axel from the tangle we created, creating a puff from both of us, and then putting him in the car.

I got into the passenger seat and stared into the void as Maya got behind the wheel and started the car.

“Pizza?” Maya asked and I nodded.

I think I’m in shock.

How do I deal with a female? We’ll have to get a bigger house. Axel can’t share a room with a girl, he has his needs, and when he’s a teenager and he’s bringing girls home, he can’t have his sister around. We had to find a house immediately. We had to find a house immediately. Prepare the rooms, and put another trust fund for college.

We had a lot to do.

Until that moment I didn’t realize that soon we will have another child, a child! Until that moment I had thought only of our life with Axel, I had prepared everything for when he would go to school, to college, anywhere in the world he wanted to go, the house, the school. But now there would have been another. We will have done twice the effort.

I felt a flurry of heat wrap me and I lowered the window to let the air through.

“I didn’t think the idea of having a baby girl was that scary,” Maya suddenly said.

“It’s not the idea of a little girl, I’m realizing now that we’re going to have another one. It’s twice the work of Maya. Twice as much!” I said, almost desperate.

Maya laughed and stopped in front of the pizzeria “I don’t think that’s gonna be a problem, you’re fabulous with Axel,” she said as she approached and kissed me on the side of her mouth.

“Because Axel is a boy, I just have to teach him to pee standing up and use a condom all the time. Females are different, more complicated, more difficult”

“What do you mean?!”

“You’re psychopaths! Look, Jess! What if she’s like Jess?!” I said, scared.

“God Nate, you’re a child! Stop! Everything will be perfect!”

“NO! We don’t have a house! We didn’t buy things for the baby! We don’t have a plan! We have to buy clothes, a stroller for both of them! We have to buy a house!” I had officially panicked and I didn’t know how to calm down anymore.

Maya grabbed my face and forced me to look her in the eye.

“Listen to me. It will go. Everything. Fine. Trust me, trust us, trust your instincts. You’re a fabulous father and you’ll continue to be one. Okay? We’ll do everything. We still have six months. We’ll find a beautiful house, in a beautiful neighbourhood, we’ll decorate a man’s room for Axel and a woman’s room for the baby. We’ll find a name, we’ll buy dresses and everything. Do you trust me?” I nodded, looking into her grey eyes that shone “Perfect. Now get out and buy me pizza.”

“Pizza Daddy,” Axel said, redefining himself.

I nodded. Trying to convince me, I got out of the car.

Here we are again with a new chapter! Nate is a bit panicked but I cannot wait to see him struggling with a little girl 😉