Let Me Love You Again
Chapter 132

Nate

I sighed and rested my back on the chair as I listened to the projections of the past year, my father spoke and spoke pointing to the most interesting points of the curve, while Jess in front of me wrote everything like a f*****g schoolgirl. I looked at her and laughed at seeing her so focused to keep up with me.

Jess looked up and glanced at me, mumbling a few words, before returning to her notepad.

I sighed and caressed my face as I looked back at my father, who kept talking nonstop. It was only 2:00 in the afternoon, but it was going to be a very long meeting.

Maya

I lay my hands on the bed while another contraction hit me fiercely. I squeezed the covers and breathed deeply trying not to scream while waiting for the pain to pass.

I’ve been locked in this goddamn room for hours, with continuous, ever-closer contractions, and I was alone. My f*****g husband wouldn’t answer the f*****g phone he had while I was almost on the verge of giving birth. God, I swear I’m gonna rip his balls off and cook them for him for dinner.

I breathed deeply.

“He answered the f*****g Ahhhhhh,” I shouted as another contraction hit me.

Lucas stroked my back as I stood in pain, tears in my eyes.

“Where is he?” I whined and breathed.

“We’re trying to call him, but his phone is disconnected, the lines in the office aren’t working, and neither is Jess and Mr Dare,” Lucas said.

“I swear I’ll rip his d**k off and shove it down his throat to make him eat it,” I said, teeth clenched.

The midwife entered the room and closed the door behind her “How are we doing, Mrs Dare?”

“Can’t you see a fairy tale?” I answered with a lament.

“We’re almost done, so please get on the bed,” he said, putting on his gloves.

Lucas and the nurse helped me to get on the bed. The midwife slid between my legs and looked carefully at “How often do the contractions?”

“A minute and five seconds,” I said, gritting my teeth as another contraction hit me.

“You’re almost completely dilated and I can already see the head, we’ll have to start pushing soon,” she said, taking off her gloves.

I looked up and shook my head and started crying, “No, no, no,”

“Come on, May, don’t be a p***y, it’s not your first birth,” Lucas said, stroking my head.

“I have already given birth alone, I will not give birth until my husband is here! Is it clear?!” I cried.

The midwife exchanged a look with the nurse then sighed, “It will take about an hour before it fully dilates, we can wait again but once dilated you will have to push or put the baby at risk,” she said, getting up.

I dropped myself between the pillows as the midwife and the nurse left the room. I breathed deeply as another shock of pain hit me.

“Lucas,” I said breathing, “Bring me my husband or I swear I’ll rip your balls off,” I said between my teeth as I grabbed the sides of the bed and I stood there, hit by another contraction.

Nate

It was almost seven o’clock in the evening when my father finally decided to end that f*****g meeting. I sighed and I pocketed looking for the phone, I hadn’t looked at it for hours but my father forbade it in every meeting.

Damn it, I left it at the office before I came into the conference room. I got up, ready to go get my things in the office and go home, when Chris blocked me to talk about the case we were working on. Chris was part of my new team, and sometimes Jess was part of it, too, for my pleasure. Seeing Jess have to obey my every request was so satisfying.

Chris and I started talking, and in the meantime, the room was empty. After I finished arguing with Chris, I greeted him and walked to the door while Jess reached out and Dad answered his cell phone.

“Don’t be so satisfied, a*****e, you got lucky because I was on maternity leave, give me a few months and see how I get past you,” angry Jess said.

“What?” I heard my father say behind me, “Wait a minute, I don’t hear anything, where are you?”.

Jess and I locked ourselves at the door and turned to our father while he was trying to figure out the caller on the phone, frowning. I put my hands in my pocket and watched him shake his head.

“Do you realize that I don’t understand anything?” Dad said on the phone, “Yes, I’m here with him, too. Because we were in a meeting. Where are you?” said Dad then looked at me and then handed me his phone “It’s your mother,” he said.

I picked up the phone and I brought it to me, “Mom,” I said, frowning.

“Can you never answer the f*****g phone?!” my mother heard from the other side.

I frowned when I heard my mother talking like that then I stiffened, I knew something had happened, I could feel it in my bones. I turned in my heels and went quickly to my office “What’s going on?” I asked immediately alarmed.

I walked into the office and I got my phone on my desk, I turned on the screen and I found so many calls from Maya, my mother, Maya’s mother, and even Lucas.

“Mom?” I said, not hearing her answer, I looked at the phone and saw that it had turned off, “f**k!”

I threw the phone on the desk and picked up mine immediately calling Maya, with my heart in my throat at every ring that went continuously while she didn’t answer.

I cursed and called my mother “Nate?”

“Mom, what’s going on?” I said in despair as I grabbed my briefcase and walked towards the door.

“Now get in the car and come to the hospital,” said my mother, I stuck my hand on the handle, “We’ve been trying to call you for hours, but you’re still in time. Maya’s water broke and she went into labor a few hours ago, more than a few”

“Damn,” I said, “I’ll be there right away,” closed the call and ran to the elevator like crazy.

“Nate?” heard Jess’s voice.

“Not now, Jess,” I said in a hurry.

“What’s going on?”

“Maya went into labor hours ago,” I said, going up the stairs, I didn’t want to wait for the elevator. My heart was beating furiously in my chest.

I didn’t hear what Jess had to say, I jumped down the flight of stairs and ran, I ran so fast I didn’t realize I had done three steps at a time.

Maya

I shouted at the top of my lungs and fell on the pillows, exhausted and tired.

“Maya, we can’t wait any longer, the baby wants to born, you have to push,” said the midwife, her head sticking out between my legs. I wiped my tears and shook my head, “No,” I said sore.

“Don’t be stubborn, you have to push now,” Lucas said next to me.

I shook my head, “I want Nate,” I said, whining and looking at the ceiling.

“But Nate’s not here, you have to think about your baby,” Lucas said, putting his hand over my red, sweaty face.

I shook my head and pulled myself up when I hit another contraction, screaming at the top of my lungs. I clung to the bars of the bed while my whole body wanted to push the baby out.

“Maya, you don’t have to block what your body wants, if you keep this up, we’ll have to do an emergency C-section,” the doctor warned me.

I inhaled through my nose and gnashed my teeth as I threw a look of hatred at the doctor. Lucas stood up and stood next to me, caressing my back gently as I closed my eyes and breathed deeply.

“I don’t want to do it without Nate, I need him,” I cried.

“But Nate’s not here, he wouldn’t want you to endanger the baby,” Lucas said softly.

I nodded and I took a deep breath and, when another contraction hit me, I screamed and started to push feeling a shooting pain.

I collapsed and shook my head, “I can’t do it,” I said, crying.

At that moment the door opened and Nate appeared, completely disheveled, with his face red and breathless. I looked at him and I burst into tears as he came running towards me, moving Lucas.

“Nate,” I said, crying, and he immediately rushed at me, circling me with his arms and joining his lips with mine.

“I’m sorry, love,” he said, his forehead resting on mine.

“Mr Dare we missed you a lot,” said the midwife between my legs, “Now Maya we have to push”.

I was hit by another contraction and I bent in two groaning in pain. I felt Nate pull my hair out of my face and stroke my sweaty cheek.

“Okay, Maya, push now,” said the doctor.

I pushed with all the strength that I had in my body, emitting a m**n of pain when I blocked. I felt Nate move next to me, and then he heard him climb up behind me, and he embraced me between his legs and he kissed me on the temple while I leaned my back to his chest.

“I love you,” he whispered in my ear.

“I hate you,” I whined.

“Okay, Maya, again,” said the doctor.

I took a deep breath and then I pulled myself up again and gritted my teeth hard before collapsing against Nate again, my head resting on his shoulder as he stroked my arms. I couldn’t take it anymore.

“We’re almost there, Maya,” said the doctor.

I shook my head, “Enough,” I said exhausted, closing my eyes, “I can’t take it anymore”.

“Maya, you must push,” the doctor repeated.

“No!” I said.

Nate

I ran, I ran like a fury. I think I hit the accelerator so hard I hit the asphalt with my foot.

I parked the car badly, I didn’t care at all, they could also remove it as far as I was concerned. I rushed into the hospital, untied the tie and opened the first buttons of the shirt, rolled up the sleeves and was completely sweaty. I’m sure my hair was messed up by how many times I put my hands through it.

I quickly went up to the third floor, taking the stairs two by two and arriving at the third floor, that of motherhood. In the waiting room I found Maya’s parents, her father holding Axel who slept happily as if nothing had happened. My mother was sitting next to them, and as soon as she saw me breathless and sweaty, she snapped to her feet.

“Nate!” he said.

“Where is she?” I asked with shortness of breath.

“Room 356,” Maya’s mother replied.

I didn’t give anyone time to run down the hall, looking for my wife’s room. I stopped in front of the room and opened the door without waiting a second longer.

Maya was lying on the bed, her legs resting and open, between them there was the midwife while Lucas was next to her, with a hand on her head. I didn’t see anything else.

I immediately rushed to her while she murmured my name with tears in her eyes. I pushed Lucas who did not complain at all. I immediately kissed her, trying to impress on that touch all the love I felt for her, how grateful I was for the life she had given me, how happy her presence in my life made me.

I put my forehead on her, wet and reddened, and I whispered words of love to her before the doctor began to instruct Maya.

Without thinking about it, she got on the bed and I put behind her, interlocking my fingers of my hands with hers while Maya began to push exhausted, pushing to bring our child to light.

Maya was exhausted. Her body was slumped against mine, she was sweating, and she was breathless as she kept shaking her head.

“Maya, you gotta push,” I heard the doctor say.

I wasn’t paying much attention to what was happening next to me, my whole being was focused on the woman of my life who was in my arms. I could feel the physical pain she was feeling, and I would do anything to stop her feeling it.

I would cut my balls off so she wouldn’t suffer like that, and I felt so much pain for her to see her feel so bad.

“No!” I heard her say forcefully as she shook her head.

Maya had her eyes closed and her head resting on my chest, I was sweating as much as she was and my shirt was soup.

“Maya there’s still a little away, you just need to give some more push,” said the doctor.

“No!” she replied, shaking her head, “I can’t do it anymore,” she cried.

I gave her a slight k**s on the temple and rubbed my nose against her hair, then stroked her arms, trying to calm her down.

“You have to push, Mon amour,” I said softly, “Don’t you want to see our daughter?” I said.

Maya opened her eyes and looked at me, her pupils dilated and her eyes red, full of tears “I can’t do it anymore” she said with a cracked voice.

“One last effort, mon amour,” I told her and then I twisted my fingers together with hers.

Maya looked me straight in the eye and then she rose, started to push harder than before, clutching my fingers so hard I thought she’d broken them. She slumped against me again and breathed again until the doctor told her to push again and so she did, once, and once again, screaming at the top of her lungs until she completely slumped against me, letting herself loose as she caught her breath, tired and sweaty.

I bent down and stormed her forehead with k****s while she took deep breaths and passed her tongue on her dry lips, eyes closed.

Both our heads snapped as a sharp cry burst into the room. My eyes rested on the little crying angel in the midwife’s hands. Her mouth was wide open and covered in b***d and bits of placenta as she poured out of her lungs after being torn from what had been her home for the last nine months.

The midwife passed our little girl in the hands of the nurse who immediately approached and laid her on Maya’s chest which immediately surrounded her with her arms as she began to cry.

“My little girl,” she said in sobs as she kissed her on her dirty forehead.

I laid a hand on our little girl’s head as she opened her eyes and looked at me, with her beautiful blue eyes that were the same as mine. I felt my eyes moisten as I watched her, cradled in the arms of Maya, the woman of my life, the mother of my children.