Let Me Love You Again
Chapter 32

Maya

I let Axel play happily in his crate before going to the room where I had left Nate, completely knocked out by the medicine, to sleep in the bed.

I went back into the room and found him completely immersed in the covers. As soon as I closed the door, he looked at me with feverish eyes.

“That’s not how I thought I’d spend Christmas with you,” he said, trembling.

I approached and took the thermometer, “And what was your idea?” I asked and put the thermometer under his arm.

“I would have brought you my gift and after I gave it to you you would have unwrapped my crotch and probably sucked it out of me,” he said painfully.

“Did you get me a present?” I said laughing as he closed his eyes and g*****d.

“To you and Axel,” he said, “I wanted to spend Christmas with you, f**k you under the tree and then tell you how I felt and f**k you again,” I raised an eyebrow as he moved.

I took off his thermometer and I looked at him. He had a very high fever and he was starting to get crazy. I took the medicine and pulled it towards me, making him open his mouth to take the first pill.

“And what would you have said?” I asked him as I passed him a glass of water.

Nate kept his eyes closed. I missed seeing his playful blue eyes that seemed to be able to read my soul. I pull his hair away from his sweaty forehead, gently caressing him as he sighed.

“Maybe I love you a little bit,” he suddenly said.

I froze and looked him in the face as my heart galloped through his words, the only chance that he could feel for me what I had felt for him for years.

I opened my mouth to answer, but I was interrupted by the sound of his phone ringing. I looked at the screen and saw that it was his mother.

“Nate,” I said taking the phone and handing it to him, “You have to answer. It’s your mother,” I said as he was feeling the air blindly until he picked up the phone.

“Hello,” he said in a hoarse voice. I heard his mother’s voice at the other end of the line, “No mom I’m not coming,” Nate replied, “I have a fever,” he continued, “No, you don’t need to come. I sleep and I don’t hear the intercom,” he said.

I raised an eyebrow and looked at him frowning.

“I’ll call you. Bye,” he said, hanging up.

“That’s not how you treat a worried mother,” I scolded him.

Nate opened his eye and looked at me, his blue pupils blurred. I bit my l*p, I wanted to throw myself at him and cuddle him until he got over his fever.

I shook my head and approached, leaving a slight k**s on his cheek and then rubbing my nose on his temple.

“Go to sleep,” I said before I got up.

“When I’m better, I deserve a strip in a sexy nurse’s uniform,” he said sleepily.

“Whatever,” I said, walking to the door.

“And then you suck my d**k,” he said, closing his eyes.

I laughed and left the room, then returned to the room where Axel was lying in his cage, his little feet covered in blue socks while kicking in the air and laughing cheerfully. I stroked his head and threw myself on the sofa, turning on the television and grabbing my cell phone.

Jess sent me a picture of her and Andrew on a beach in the Maldives. The two newlyweds had left a few days before but I had not been able to go to greet them because I was still sick. I answered with a heart and I imagined me and Nate so hugged and in love and I could not avoid the heartbeat of my heart that seemed to want to explode in my chest from how fast it was going.

Nate said maybe he loved me. Was he? Did he love me?

I put my hands on my face and shook my head. After that week together, after everything that had happened between us, I couldn’t help but think of a future for him and me with my baby.

I didn’t realize it until that moment. I didn’t want anyone else. Everyone else couldn’t even be a mere replacement for him. Every time I went out with Jeremy, I was always looking for those feelings, those feelings that only Nate could provoke me. Everyone I’d tried, everyone I’d been with, until Brad, no one had ever been able to make me feel as good as Nate. To give me the peace and quiet that I so longed for.

I couldn’t figure anyone else in my mind. I didn’t want anyone else. I wanted him. I just wanted Nate and nobody else. I didn’t care how hard it was gonna be, or if I pissed Jess off, I was gonna go up against an army of hundreds of Jesses for him. I didn’t care about anything else. Just him.

I smiled at that realization, feeling a flicker in my stomach as Axel giggled in his playful cage.

My phone rang and I took it. Lucas’ cheerful face appeared on the screen.

“Hello?” I answered cheerfully.

“Is the Christmas air good for you, May?” Lucas said to the other end.

“Can’t I just be happy?” I frowned and looked up at the ceiling.

“Did You just got f****d?”

“God, you vulgar Luc!” I said, laughing.

“Devon listens May looks like a schoolgirl,” Lucas yelled suddenly.

“May May, He gave you his package for Christmas and you spent the whole night unwrapping it?” Devon suddenly said.

“Devon!” I laughed at him.

“Maybe she’s still unwrapping it and talking to us while Nate throws his d**k in her,” Lucas said seriously.

“God, do you listen when you talk?” I said, stunned.

“Can we come to bring presents for Axel or do we find you bent over on the table with Nate f*****g you from behind?” asked Lucas seriously.

“My God, what the f**k is on your mind,” I said, putting my hand over my face and turning my head towards the bedroom door as if I could see Nate sleeping blissfully between the covers.

“Can we come? Or are you coming?” Devon said.

“The last thing you’ll see me doing is f*****g,” I said thoughtfully.

“Very soon,” Lucas answered, hanging up.

I looked at the phone screen and sighed before I grabbed my pillow and shoved it in my face.

*******

I had just hung off the phone with my mother when they knocked on the door, and I went immediately and opened it, and Lucas and Devon with their hands full of presents.

“I hope for you that there’s something in there for me too,” I said, letting them in and closing the door.

“We got you a sexy outfit to use with Nate. The alternative was a vibrator but since you already have a d**k to use, we didn’t think you should fill up with stuff to fill your p***y”, Lucas said seriously.

I opened my mouth wide, completely stunned, “You talk like a pimp,” I said, going over to Axel’s cage and pulling him out.

My baby squealed and clapped his hands cheerfully as Devon approached and ruffled his blond hair. Axel laughed and hid his face in the hollow of my neck as Lucas handed him one of the toys he had bought him.

“I’m surprised you’re not naked on the couch”

“Damn it, Lucas, will you stop? I don’t know if you realize that I have a son and I can’t spend all my time with Nate between my legs,” I said as I was sitting on the couch.

“Yeah, so what’s that men’s sweatshirt there?” my friend replied, pointing to Nate’s grey sweatshirt.

I shook my head and put Axel right on my lap, making him jump slowly.

“Were you really sick or did you make up an excuse to lock yourself in the house and f**k like an animal in heat?” Lucas asked, sitting next to me.

“Is it possible that your mind doesn’t go beyond that? I’ve been really bad! I caught a horse fever in the hospital and had to get away from Axel too,” I said, shaking my head.

“And in all this, Nate?” asked Devon pointing at the sweatshirt.

“Nate… Nate,” a sweet smile popped into my face, and I couldn’t control it when I thought about Nate and how he took care of me that week.

“Are those heart-shaped eyes I see?” Lucas asked her boyfriend.

“Definitely doe eyes in love,” Devon replied.

“In love? I’d say totally gone,” Lucas added.

“You know I can hear you?” I asked, looking at my baby’s blue eyes as he put his little hand in his mouth.

“You know you don’t have to hide anything from me?” Lucas replied, “Our Nate?”

“Ours?” I said, laughing.

“You know what I mean”

“Okay. He took care of me all week,” I said softly.

“All week?” Devon asked.

I nodded, “Does that mean he gave you a bath?” Lucas asked.

“He took care of me,” I repeated.

“What now?” asked Lucas

“And now he’s in the bedroom,” I said quietly.

“May May!” Lucas shouted cheerfully.

“Shhhh, keep your voice down, Lucas!” Axel opened his eyes wide and was immediately filled with tears as his lower l*p began to shake visibly.

I immediately rocked him as he laid his head on my neck and started sobbing.

“You’re an animal,” Devon rebuked him.

The door to my room opened and everyone shut up while I watched Nate come out in his pajamas and barefoot while he rubbed his red eyes. His hair was black and his face was pale.

“Vade retro-demon!” Lucas yelled, getting up.

Axel panicked in my arms and began crying in despair as Nate froze in the middle of the room.

“My God, Lucas! Can’t you stay calm?” I scolded him as Axel clung to my neck in a desperate cry.

“Hello…?” Nate said, looking at the two guests.

I placed Axel in my arms, cradling him and giving him a light k**s on his reddened, teary face as I tried to calm him down.

Nate took a step forward, but Lucas stopped him immediately, “Don’t come near me!” he shouted, “We have a commitment for New Year’s Eve and I won’t let the germ bomb, that you are, getting anywhere near me,” he said, raising his arm.

“You’re the intruder,” Nate mumbled before going into the kitchen quietly.

I turned to Lucas and Devon, and I pulled them both out to admire Nate’s tight a*s wrapped in his pajama pants. I walked up and I elbowed one of them and stepped on the other’s feet. Both of them m****d in pain as I approached Axel’s cage and shoved him in. My baby had fallen asleep in tears, my little love had tears on his face and red cheeks.

I put it down gently and put a cover over him.

“You’re heartless, you made him cry like hell,” I told Lucas as I posed one of Axel’s puppets next to him.

Meanwhile, Nate came out of the kitchen with a glass of juice in his hands. I approached him and fondled his forehead gently, noting with pleasure that the temperature had dropped.

“I’d watch you two lovebirds make out all day, but I’m not gonna take the flu. Send me a video of you making out,” Lucas said, taking his coat and putting it on.

“Please lock him in the house and don’t let him near here again,” I said to Devon, putting my hands on my h**s as they both walked towards the door.

“What you should fear is Jess,” Lucas answered carelessly.

I frowned and looked at him, “Not a word,” and threatened him.

Lucas made a gesture of closing his mouth before leaving my apartment, dancing cheerfully with Devon on his heels.