Let Me Love You Again
Epilogue

8 Years later

Axel 12 years old

Ali 10 years

Adam 8 years

Maya

I sighed and turned off the computer as I got up from the chair behind my desk. Another day he was gone and I could finally go home to my children. I closed the door of my office and went towards the exit.

“Hi, Sandra, I’ll see you on Monday,” I said to the secretary on my way to the elevator.

Sandra was a little over 20 years old and she was still in college, we hired her to do an internship and I had to admit that she was really good and I hoped that after university she would stay and work for us, we needed her help.

I went into the elevator and picked up the phone to send a message to my beautiful husband, hoping that he too had disconnected from work and had taken the children from their grandparents.

Spring break was at school, and the kids were home all day, so for two weeks, we’d leave them one day at my parents’ and one day at Nate’s parents. Ali and Adam were more than happy to spend time with their grandparents, especially since there were also twins and Noah, Jess and Andrew’s two-year-old baby. Axel, on the other hand, Axel was not going to spend time with his grandparents, no, he was obsessed with wanting to be with his father, he wanted to learn from him and what he did, and he was completely enchanted by Nate’s work and he spent Saturdays in Nate’s office at home, while he finished some work, sitting next to him reading some books or listening to him.

So Nate had been forced to take Axel to the office every day, not that he loved the idea of Axel following in his footsteps, he loved to show him new things and keep him close while he worked so he could learn and grow, Nate was hoping that Axel would follow in his footsteps and do what he could to make sure that he did, not that it would push him too hard.

Axel adored, loved Nate crazy and had taken him as a role model, over and over again he had said he wanted to become like him. I remember a theme at school, the teachers had asked the children to describe which superhero they were mirrored in, and Axel had described Nate, writing how much he wanted to be like him when he grew up.

I sighed and looked at the screen, where the picture of my three children over Nate filled the whole screen, smiles as I stepped out of the elevator and dialed his number. Nate immediately responded to the second call girl.

“This stallion dreaming of his beautiful nymph,” he said cheerfully from the other side of the line.

“Are you in a good mood?” I asked leaving the building where my pediatric office was.

“I’m always in a good mood when you call me, Mon amour,” he said.

I heard a disgusting sound in the background, “What a crap” Axel’s voice said, and I laughed.

“You won’t be making all this up in a few years,” Nate said.

“Are you coming home?” I asked as I got into my car.

“Right now I’m going to Dad’s house to pick up Ali and Adam,” Nate said.

“How about Chinese for tonight? I’ll pick up the kids and you go to take the dinner,” I said hopefully.

“Yes!” Axel heard in the background.

“I don’t think it’s up to you,” Nate muttered.

“Dad,” Axel heard reproached.

“All right, all right,” Nate sighed, “Okay, we’ll go get dinner, see you later,” he said at the end.

“Bye mom!” Axel said cheerfully.

“Bye love!” I said, hanging up.

I set the car in motion and picked up my kids.

*****

As soon as Nate’s mother opened the door to me, she heard a loud noise. Screams and laughs of children roaring everywhere.

“An asylum?” I asked.

“Grandpa is having the time of his life,” she laughed.

“Mom!” I heard Adam screaming.

I bent down and opened my arms and he immediately rushed, laughing as I filled him with k****s. Adam surrounded my neck with his arms and kissed me with the same enthusiasm.

Adam was the sweetest of the three. He was my little angel, my precious child, looking at everything with joyful and curious eyes, laughing and running everywhere, making every place where he went joyful and I hoped that he would stay that way, that he would not lose his light and vitality in this world.

Ali, on the other hand, was a little princess, she was very smart and smart, she knew how to get what she wanted, especially with Nate, she could turn her father over in the palm of her hand, and Nate would do anything for her, If he asked him to destroy the world, he would have done it for her.

Axel was different. Axel was quiet on the outside, but we knew he could go on a rampage when he could and he wanted to, he could understand people and play with their heads, exploit them at will but not to hurt, when others suffered he was the first to go and know how to console others, especially when it came to his brothers and cousins, he immediately understood when something was wrong and tried to solve it at the most taken, but he was very controlling and he liked to have control over everyone. He preferred to solve other people’s problems in a way that kept them under control, he didn’t want to be kept in the dark, and he wanted things to go his way.

He didn’t like it when things didn’t go as he planned, and he hated the slightest change in his routine. With time we had learned to manage his obsessive-compulsive problems and we had managed to calm them a little, we had done tests, with the help of a psychologist, so that it did not get worse but we could not eliminate them completely.

“Mom, I missed you,” Adam said in my ear.

“I missed you too,” I said hugging him close to me, “Have you been good to your grandparents?” I asked him looking into his grey eyes.

Adam smiled and nodded gently, and then I hid my face in my neck, I hugged him, and then I held him, even though he was big and heavy, I couldn’t help myself, not with him.

I heard more screams coming from the living room and I walked there, while Adam told me how his day had gone and all the drawings he had done for me.

When I walked into the living room I found Ali and Emma arguing over something while Liam wrestled with little Noah who was trying to defend himself unnecessarily while his brother was playing.

“Ali let’s go?” I said, watching my daughter turn her head to the side and look at me frowning.

“Where’s Dad?” she asked, looking around.

“To get dinner,” I said, putting Adam on the ground and starting to collect their things and put them in their backpacks, Adam, my love, began to help me gently.

“Axel?” I heard Emma ask.

I looked up and met her eyes as she looked around for Axel.

“With his father,” I said, getting their affairs in order.

I heard Emma’s sigh but I didn’t look up, I knew what I was going to meet, Emma’s sad eyes. The relationship between Axel and Emma was getting closer and closer and I was worried, I just hoped that it would not turn into something deeper.

I sighed and continued to fix things, helped by Adam as I felt Ali getting up and getting dressed around me.

“Aunty?” I heard Emma’s voice, and I looked up, and I found her in front of me with my hands behind my back and green eyes in sweetness mode, “Can I sleep over tonight?” asked me gently.

“I don’t know, I don’t think it’s the case, your mother doesn’t know and I don’t think she’d be happy,” I said, taking it all back.

I sighed and I looked at her, she had big eyes, big eyes that I could never resist, and Emma knew how to catch me. But I couldn’t let her sleep at home with us, most of the time she came over for the night with Liam, and she ended up sleeping in Axel’s bed, although when I put her to bed, she was in Ali’s room, on the air mattress, then she always ended up in Axel’s bed, They slept together, hugged each other, and I was worried about it, and not a little, even though Nate always said not to worry about them, but I knew what that meant because it happened to me when we were kids, and I didn’t want the same thing to happen between Emma and Axel, even if they didn’t have the same b***d, for Axel it was so, Nate was his father, Jess his aunt and Emma his cousin. End of the story.

“I don’t think Em,” I said.

“I’ll call mom,” she insisted.

“Take her away with you, Aunt, at least tonight we can have peace,” Liam said, throwing Noah on the couch, laughing and shaking like a madman.

“Your mother won’t want to, you better go home,” I said

“Mom and Dad will be super happy, the other night they were complaining because Noah came into the room while they were doing yoga, Noah couldn’t sleep with Emma because she was talking in her sleep and I was locked in my room,” Liam said shrugging.

I cringed and shook my head rolling my eyes, damn Andrew and Jess who couldn’t lock the door when they wanted to have some intimacy.

“I’m sure, but Emma has to sleep at home,” I said, shaking my head.

“Please, Aunty,” Emma repeated with a faint voice.

No crying, please don’t. I looked up and then sighed, I picked up the phone and passed it to her, she immediately took it cheerful and found without any problems her mother’s number.

“Dad!” she said cheerfully, “Where’s Mom?” she asked, “What does that mean, her mouth is full?” she asked innocently.

My saliva went sideways and I started coughing as much as I could. Damn those two, they weren’t at work.

“Ah okay, I’m going to sleep at aunt and uncle’s,” she said convinced, I frowned and looked at her, she wasn’t asking permission, she was imposing her decision, and she was doing it because she was talking to her father and not Jess, otherwise she would never allow herself.

“Yes I know dad, don’t worry, yes Liam and Noah no, I don’t know they’re fighting, yes I love you too, say hello to mom. Bye!” Emma said, “It’s okay, aunt! I’m packing my things!” she said, then turned to me with joy, before running and fetching her things.

I wrote a message to Nate. An extra portion, Emma comes home.

He answered with his fist.

“Ali get your things,” I said as I got up and Adam put his hand in mine, happy.

“Auntie, I’m ready!” Emma said, running towards me with her backpack on her shoulder.

I handed her a hand through her long, soft blond hair and then I looked at my daughter who seemed to want to ignore me completely.

“Alison!” I scolded her.

“Yes, Mom?” she answered almost bored.

“Your things, Ali, I won’t say it twice,” I said, tapping my foot on the ground.

“Why can’t I go to Miles’ and sleep over?” she asked looking at me and crossing her arms to her chest, then she began to tap her foot on the ground.

“Because I say so,” I said.

“I want to talk to Dad,” she said, reaching out and demanding my phone.

“No, now talk to me and hurry up and get your things before I get angry,” I said.

“I want Dad,” she replied stubbornly as a mule.

“No! Take your things, Alison Dare!” I said more seriously.

“Stupid,” Adam said, turning his tongue.

“Mom!” she said, complaining.

“Adam, stop it, Alison, get your stuff ready now!” I said.

Alison snorted and rolled her eyes, then began to take her things and put them in her non-rabies bag “I don’t like it, I prefer Dad” she heard her moaning.

“Less talk, more fact, Alison,” I said.

She snorted and started getting ready, pissed off at me, but I didn’t care.

*****

I opened the door and the children immediately ran into the house, in the garage there was already parked Nate’s car so I knew he was home with Axel.

Alison took off her jacket and hung it in its place, then took off her shoes and diligently placed her backpack on the ground. She turned, looked at me with hatred and then turned to the other side, completely ignoring me, I rolled my eyes and helped take Adam’s coat off while Emma took off her clothes diligently.

“Dad!” cried Alison desperately, “Mom hates me!” she said as she walked towards the kitchen.

I heard Nate’s laugh ringing around the house, and I immediately went into the kitchen with Adam next to me, his little hand inside mine.

“Uncle!” Emma said cheerfully running towards him.

“There’s my princess! Do you like lemon chicken?” Nate asked, embracing her.

“I love it!” she said cheerfully.

Ali looked at him frowning, almost furious, Nate left Emma and she immediately sat down next to Axel.

Nate looked at me and winked at me, then looked at his daughter, his hands crossed in his chest and his face, Nate looked at her frowning before being distracted by Adam passing by and high-fiving him. Immediately Nate’s gaze returned to Ali, who did not move from her place.

“Come and sit down mon amour,” he said as he sat down and moved the chair next to his.

“Dad,” she said.

I also sat down at the table and took the packet of rice, putting a part of it on Adam’s plate.

“Yes, mon amour?” he said, looking at her with love, Ali began to tap her foot on the ground, smouldering with rage.

“Why did you call Emma your princess? Since when?” she said, jealous.

I laughed and began to eat as Nate sighed demoralized, “You are my queen, mon amour,” he said as gently as possible.

“I don’t like it,” she said, shaking her head.

She approached the table but stood at the chair farthest from Nate’s and he looked at her stunned, “Why are you standing so far away?” he asked.

Alison didn’t answer, she just took her soy noodles and filled her plate, blissfully ignoring her father who looked at me wounded.

Axel and Emma ate in silence, passing the containers quietly as if it were something they always do.

We all ate in silence, and after we were done, the kids went upstairs, the girls washed, and the boys played the console, and Nate and I would clear up and set up the kitchen. Nate was demoralized because Ali had not spoken to him all evening, offended to death for the little attention he received from his father.

“Stop it, you’re spoiling her too much and she doesn’t listen to anyone,” I said, shaking my head.

“I’m not spoiling her,” he defended himself.

“Ah no? Don’t you do everything he tells you? Don’t you buy her every crap she wants? She becomes despotic and understands how to get things if you continue to give her all won,” I said looking at him.

“Okay okay, I admit, he’s got me tied up on a leash, but what can I do?” he said, raising his hands, then he came up to me and surrounded my waist with his arms, I put my arms around his neck and looked him in the eyes.

“Let her know you’re in charge,” I said, rubbing my nose against hers.

“But if I do, he won’t look at me again, you saw her tonight,” he said with his face.

“It doesn’t matter,” I said.

“I’ll try now, k**s me, mon amour, I’m dry,” he said, closing his eyes and turning his face towards mine.

“I don’t think Em,” I said.

I laughed and immediately kissed him, letting myself go and joining my tongue to his, leaving myself completely in his arms, in my house.

*****

Nate

I went up the stairs and I immediately went to Adam’s room, to check that he had fallen asleep. As soon as I entered I found my little boy lying on the bed, with his pyjamas and in his hands a piece of paper and a felt-tip pen with which he was trying his hand. He fell asleep while drawing, as was his usual.

I approached, my heart full of love for the little creature lying in bed. I took the paper and pencil out of his hand and placed it on the table, lifted it up slightly and tried to move the bed covers inside, he sighed and, when I put it inside the covers, opened his eyes slightly.

He looked at me with her drowsy, shiny grey eyes, “Good night, Dad,” he said softly.

“Good night,” I said, bending down and kissing him on the forehead.

Adam sighed and closed his eyes again, I took the blankets and covered him, holding him at his best and then turned off the light and closed the door.

I stopped by Ali’s room to see if she and Emma had gone to bed. When I came in, I found only Ali, holding a book to read in her hand, her back resting on the headboard of the bed and her long black hair tied in a braid.

When I walked in, she looked up and studied me, “Emma?” I asked her.

Ali frowned, “What do you think?” she said, rolling her eyes.

I sighed, “Turn off the light and go to bed,” I said.

“I finish the chapter,” she replied, nodded, and I turned to leave “Dad?” I heard myself calling.

“Yes?” I turned my head and looked over my shoulder.

“I’m sorry about dinner, I don’t want to make you feel bad,” she said regretfully.

“You must never doubt your importance to me, Ali, if you are the woman of my life,” I said winking at her.

Ali blushed and nodded “You too are the man of my life, Pa” she said cheerfully “Good night!”.

“Good night mon amour,” I said, and he left his room and closed the door behind me.

I sighed and passed Axel’s room, the door was closed so I knocked and heard the answer open.

Axel and Emma were sitting on the bed, legs crossed and one in front of the other, between them there was a chessboard and they looked at each other in silence. Emma moved one of the pawns and then looked at Axel who crossed his hands in front of his face and looked carefully at the board, pondering his next move.

I crossed my arms and leaned with my side to the door frame. I watched them for a couple of minutes.

“Do you know what time it is?” I asked him.

“Hi, Uncle!” Emma said without looking away from Axel, “We know, but I’m kicking his a*s!” he continued cheerfully.

“Emma’s language” I scolded her.

“Sorry.”

I sighed and looked at them once again, Axel was super focused and feared losing to Emma.

“When you finish this game, I want you in bed, okay?” I said.

Emma turned to me and nodded cheerfully before returning to him.

“The door stays open,” I said and walked out of the room.

With a sigh, I went to our bedroom, and I unbuttoned my shirt. I went in and closed the door behind me and looked around. Maya came out of the walk-in closet wearing only panties and a bra, sexy as a goddess, I watched her from head to toe.

“Mrs Dare, after twelve years of marriage you still give me a hard-on like I’m a f*****g teenager,” I said with almost a drool in my mouth.

“And you, Mr Dare, you’re such a boor,” she said, laughing.

I looked at her with a raised eyebrow and took off my shirt, throwing her to the ground with a slow and sinuous movement. I saw Maya follow the movement of her shirt and then look at my chest, a flash of lightning ran through her eyes as she bit her lower l*p. I began to unbutton my pants and she followed the movement of my hands.

“Do you want to get on your knees and greet him?” I said pointing at the c**k that was already coming to life in my pants.

Maya looked back at my face, a jolly flash in her eyes and then turned, “I’m tired, Mr Dare,” she said and unbuttoned her bra and threw it on the floor.

She slipped her fingers into the elastic of her panties and let them slide down her legs, leaning forward and giving me a wonderful view of her gorgeous a*s and p***y. She left the piece of cloth on the ground and walked towards the bathroom, I like a little dog followed her, taking off my pants as I walked.

I went into the bathroom and found her already in the shower, I threw my boxers on the ground and I slipped behind her, surrounded her pelvis with one arm and began to bite her neck, while I rubbed my hard c**k against her butt. Maya moved her head to the side and clung to the shower handle.

“Someone is happy,” she said with a g***n.

“You don’t know how much,” I said.

I grabbed her chin and turned her face towards mine and then kissed her passionately, groaning in her mouth as she rubbed her butt against my hard-on rock.

I stretched out her legs and bent her forward, before grabbing my d**k and pushing it inside her with a single precise movement, reaching to the end as she g*****d in my mouth and squeezed the handle.

I put one hand on the tiles above her head and with the other, I grabbed her side, I pulled away from her mouth and began to push fiercely inside her, dropping my head back as I let myself go to the deepest ecstasy, with his g****s in his ears.

“God, harder, Nate!” she g*****d, putting a hand on mine on his side.

She came out of her and you turned her around and then grabbed her by the butt. I lifted her leg and put it around my pelvis, opening her wide for me, while she surrounded me with an arm around my neck, with her free hand she grabbed my c**k and pumped it and then pushed it inside her. I let myself drive and she arched her back on the shower tiles.

I bent down and bit my l*p as I began to move my h**s, slamming it in continuously, my skin slapping hers, the balls slamming against her a*s as our m***s filled the bathroom along with the sound of the pouring water. Maya stuck her fingers in my hair and then grabbed my tongue between my teeth as she g*****d nonstop.

It wasn’t long before I reached that precise spot inside of her that made her squeeze and immediately come around me, with a suffocated scream.

I pushed as she came, riding her o****m and then emptied myself inside her, giving one last push and blocking me as I came with a roar and kissed and bit her.

When we both calmed down, I opened my eyes and I looked at her, as she did, eyes full of love, as were mine.

“I love you, Maya,” I said.

“I love you, Nate,” she replied and joined our lips in a k**s that could express that love that filled my heart, that love that had changed my life and had given me another.

That love that I could and would have felt always and only for her. Now and forever.