Let Me Love You Again
Chapter 113

I froze the moment I saw her lips a few millimetres from mine, almost touching, and Becka looked me right in the eyes.

“What are you doing?” I asked, gritting my teeth.

Becka bent her head to the side “I want to see if anything happens, if the chemistry I’ve always felt and continue to feel is true or just a figment of my imagination,” she said.

She didn’t give me time to answer she put a hand in my hair and pushed me against her mouth.

Before she could k**s me I ducked out and her k**s ended on the side of my mouth. I skimmed out of her grip and pulled back.

“I’m married, Becka,” I said, looking at her emotionless.

“Are you telling me that you feel absolutely nothing for me? That everything we went through was nothing? That the chemistry between us was and is nothing?”

“We were kids who wanted to f**k Becks, nothing more than that,” I said, shaking my head and walking away from her.

“No, we weren’t just that, you admitted it yourself. When we were together everything else disappeared, it was just you and me and it still is, you can’t deny it”.

“I don’t deny it but it’s not like you think” sighed “For me, there is nothing beyond friendship Becka I feel nothing” I admitted trying to be as sensitive as possible “And to answer your question before, no, it wouldn’t have changed a bit if we kept hearing each other because Maya was at home and in my life and there was always Maya to me. No matter how many f***s there have been, how many girls. It’s always been her and it’s always gonna be her. Even if I kept seeing you, nothing would change, because I wasn’t created for you, I was created for Maya, and whatever path I took, I would always come to her because she is my beginning and my end,” I said.

Becka looked at me and for a moment I noticed a note of disappointment in her eyes but hid it immediately looking away.

“I’m sorry if you deluded yourself, I didn’t mean to give you some signal, I didn’t want to, everything I did I did in friendship because I think you’re a good old friend because I can’t feel anything for anyone else, my heart belongs to Maya,” I said getting up.

I threw some bills on the table while Becka looked at me.

“But thank you, because you made me realize even more that I really love her,” I said, turning to go.

“Nate!” Becka called me. I froze and looked over her shoulder, “I’m sorry,” she said in sincerity.

“It doesn’t matter, just clear it up,” I said, going away again.

“Where are you going?” she asked.

“Home. Have a good life, Becka,” I said and winked at her before I left the club and called a cab.

I was tired, after all that, the only thing I wanted most of all was to be in the arms of my family, I didn’t want to wait another three days. I didn’t give a s**t about the rest.

I picked up the phone and texted my dad.

With your permission or not I’m going home tonight. The others can close.

After sending the message I went to the site and booked the first flight to go home. I completed everything the moment the taxi stopped in front of my hotel. I paid and got off and then went in and quickly headed to my room. I had two hours to get ready and go to the airport and then a few hours and I would get to Philadelphia. It would be the middle of the night, and Maya and Axel would be asleep, but I didn’t care. I didn’t want to spend another night away from my woman’s arms.

As I entered my room, I sent a message to Zeke.

I’m leaving tonight, I’m going home. You can take all the credit, I don’t give a s**t, I just want to go home.

I wrote quickly and then threw the phone on the bed.

In half an hour I put all my stuff back in the suitcase and took the bag with the documents. I put the bag on my shoulder and took the phone in my pocket, did a quick check-in to see if I had forgotten something and then, with the trolley in one hand, went to the door.

Without thinking a second more, I left the room and went to the elevators. I could not contain the excitement, I would finally see my family, I felt like the first time I went out in the hope of meeting Maya together with Jess.

With her it was always like this, every time my feeling was stronger and stronger.

As I walked out of the hotel and got into the cab I had called, I felt my legs quiver and a dazzling smile appear on my lips.

A few more hours, Mon amor.

*****

I paid the cab driver and got out, then unloaded my bags. It was four in the morning and I was in front of our house, completely dark, like the whole neighbourhood, I felt my heart galloping in my chest and my hands sweating as I pulled out the keys to the gate and opened it.

I dragged the suitcase down the driveway and got to the porch. In complete silence, I opened the door and entered the alarm password. I closed the door and stood at the door.

The house was completely dark and quiet, the smell of home, Maya and Axel entered my nostrils and calmed my every sense and I almost started crying.

I was home. Finally. I wouldn’t leave anymore, Maya would have to pull me off with a dustpan to keep me away.

I entered the alarm password again and took off my shoes, silently placing them at the entrance. I left the suitcase and the duffel bag at the entrance and immediately went up the stairs, being careful not to wake anyone.

My first stop was Axel’s room. The door was open and the night light was on, projecting drawings on the wall and ceiling.

I went in slowly and approached Axel’s bed. I almost fainted when I saw him again in the flesh in front of me.

Axel slept with his arms raised above his head, his mouth open and his hair completely ruffled. I wanted to get closer, bend over and fill him with k****s, and let him shower me with his wonderful perfume, but I knew that if I touched him, Axel would wake up and never sleep again.

Tomorrow morning. Tomorrow morning I will never leave him again.

I watched him sleep for another ten minutes then sighed and decided to go to Maya’s.

I walked down the corridor in silence and opened the door to my room. The room was simply lit by moonlight from the curtains.

And there she was, lying in bed, tucked in blankets. I felt my heart roll over in my chest and my legs tremble. I immediately unbuttoned my pants and took off my shirt and then silently approached the bed.

Maya slept with her arms raised over her head and her mouth wide open, her hair ruffled, the exact same position as Axel. The blanket covered her legs and had the belly visible and covered only by the silk of the nightgown.

I lingered over every line of her face. I f*****g missed her. I got on the bed quietly and I tucked under the covers, shaking the bed a bit.

Maya sighed and moved, holding a hand on her belly and turning her face towards me.

I stood still until her breath came to rest, and then I approached her again, lying next to her and watching her sleep blissfully, my heart galloping so fast in my chest that it threatened to come out of my chest.

I gently laid a hand on her belly, much larger than the last time I saw it, leaving it there as my eyes continued to imprint in my head every single feature of Maya’s face. Then I felt it, something and I immediately took off my hand with the look that was snapping towards her belly. I frowned and put my hand back on her belly and again felt one blow, then another, followed by a flurry of motions that didn’t stop.

I pulled myself up and pulled my face closer to the tummy as I felt my eyes get wet. My little girl moved, and as she moved. It felt like a fury. She was kicking and moving in an incredible way, and I didn’t understand how Maya could keep sleeping.

I put my cheek on her belly, enjoying all those movements against my skin while joy and peace intoxicated my senses, so much so that my eyes became heavy and made me fall into a deep sleep, embraced on Maya’s h**s and with my head on her belly. Finally in my place, at home.