The Alpha's Rejected Silent Mate
The Alpha’s Rejected Silent Mate Chapter 98

Johnathon POV

“You mean she has no memories of us at all?” I ask in disbelief, the others hanging onto my every words as we crowd around in the study. Kai looks at me angrily but I don’t care. How the hell does Winter manage to lose her memories. I didn’t think her injuries had been that serious. Now I feel like an i***t.

“None” Kai says heavily “she doesn’t remember me, her brother or any of you guys” he adds, indicating myself and Langdon.

I scowl at him. “For how long?” I ask irritably.

“It could be days, it could be months before she gets her memories back” Kai shoots back “we can’t force her to try and remember”

I don’t have months though. I sigh. Damien understands the reason for my angst and shoots me a sympathetic look but I don’t want his sympathy.

“So what are we supposed to do in the meantime?” I ask and Kai looks frustrated.

“We just encourage her to remember. Remind her of things she likes and what we’ve done together.”

Well that’s not helplful.

“I don’t exactly want to remind her of her past” Damien grumbles “it’s not exactly something that’s going to make her happy” he adds and I know his reasoning. After all, he more than anyone, well maybe except his father, bullied Winter relentlessly at school and at home. I don’t blame him for not wanting to remind Winter of that.

“I don’t think we should mention her father either” I shoot out irritably and Damien gives a small nod, looking glum.

“So we tell her about all the good things” Langdon points out, arms folded across his chest. “All the little things. I know she likes purple flowers for instance, roses in particular.”

Kai looked thoughtful. “I can remind her of the first date we had together.”

“Oh and what about when you guys went for a run for the first time?” Langdon says to Kai eagerly. Kai nods furiously.

Well I feel left out. There’s no fond memories that Winter’s going to have of me. Rejecting her at first sight wouldn’t exactly make for a memorable moment. IT would just leave a sour taste in her mouth. My heart feels sad. I really wanted to show her how much I’ve changed, for the better, and instead she’s lost all memory of me. The irony. I guess it’s karma coming back to bite me in the a*s. It’s the least of what I deserve.

Besides who am I kidding? Winter’s never going to give me a second chance. Not when she has a mate like Kai. I didn’t stand a chance of trying to persuade her to give me a shot. Besides Kai seems to genuinely love her. For who she is, and everytime he glances at her, I can see the love in his eyes for her. I want that. I’ve given up on thinking I never want a mate, now I see just how special it is, even Langdon and Damien make a really cute couple and can’t seem to keep their hands off of each other. It’s really adorable.

“The only memory she has really of me, besides being here, is me rejecting her” I say softly, meeting Kai’s eyes. “I’d rather she not remember it.”

“She’s going to want to know who you are” points out Kai gruffly.

I look him directly in the eyes. “I plan on avoiding her until I leave tomorrow.”

He looks surprised. “Why avoid her? Even if you’re just friends. . .” he trails off.

I take a deep breath and steel myself “because it hurts too much to be near her and not touch her” I say honestly as Kai looks taken aback.

“Johnathon” Damien says softly “you rejected Winter, remember.”

“I know” I answer “and Kai I wouldn’t dream of trying to take her from you. But seeing her with you, just reminds me of what I don’t have and what I let slip through my fingers. It’s unbearable” I choke out.

“I understand” Kai assures me. “I would feel the same way in your shoes. But where are you going when you leave? Back to your pack, or will you continue to travel?”

I think about it. Mother’s probably missing me like crazy by now and to be fair, I miss my pack and the responsibilities that go with it. I’ve managed to do what I set out to do, and that’s save Winter. Now it’s time I go back and maybe, if I’m lucky, I’ll even find a second chance mate like Winter has.

I stop, feeling choked up. I lean forward and gently k**s her on the forehead, watching her eyelids flutter and then settle. I stand up and quietly walk towards the doorway, my shoulders slumped in defeat. I can’t help looking over my shoulder to get one last glimpse of her, before I gently close the door behind me, leaving Winter to her sleep.

Kai meets me at the head of the stairs. I wonder how much of that he overheard. But he says nothing. Instead he gives me a small smile and walks me back down towards the study. It’s empty. Damien and Langdon have obviously left to do something else. Kai closes the door behind him.

“Listen” he says firmly “you did me and Winter a great service coming to her rescue and to warn her about the danger. Is there anything we can do for you? Name it and I’ll arrange it” he breathes. I can hear the gratefulness in his voice. I cringe. There’s nothing I want from him. Well almost nothing. An idea sparks in my mind. “Actually, maybe we can do each other a favour” I say with a smile, leaning back in the chair “how does a treaty between our two packs sound?” I coax.

He’s silent for a moment and I wonder if I’ve overstepped my bounds. But then he stares directly at me, a small smile playing on his face. “I would be honoured to sign a treaty with your pack. If anything should happen,I am more than happy to offer my aid Alpha Johnathon” he breathes.

“Can we organise it before the morning?” I enquire. I dont’ want to delay my plans. Not after officially saying goodbye to Winter. It would hurt too much to stay here and have to watch her with Kai. I really need to get out of here.

“I can organise it within the hour” Kai answers with a grin, pulling out a bottle of bourbon from his desk. He offers me a sip but I shake my head. I’ve never liked the taste of bourbon. He takes a swig in front of me and then his eyes glaze over.

“Right, I’ve got a lawyer, a witness and Langdon coming back to the study” he says fixing his gaze on me “not to mention a notary. I told you I’d organise it quickly” he says proudly and despite myself I’m impressed. He’s done it a lot quicker than I’d anticipated. This time when he offers the bourbon I take a small sip, trying not to splutter as it burns my throat going down. I hastily give it back to him.

“To a treaty between our packs” Kai cheers and I smile and nod.

“To the treaty between our packs” I say back, grabbing the bottle and drinking from it. This time it goes down a lot easier.

Within the hour the treaty is signed and I carefully place it in a bag that Kai has produced for me, along with a small pile of clothes.

“I can send you in a car with a small group of warriors” Kai says to me “it would really ease my mind to know you’re not travelling back alone.”

I c**k my head. It sounds a lot better than travelling back on my own and quite frankly a car would be absolute luxury as the weather is getting cold and quite wet.

“Can I leave now?” I ask quietly and he hesitated then nods.

“I’ll arrange it. Is there any reason you want to leave so badly?”

“I hate goodbyes” I say calmly and it’s the truth. Within minutes, I’m in a car heading back towards my pack house. Goodbye Damien, Langdon and Winter, I think to myself a little sadly. There was no telling if I would ever see any of them again.