The Alpha's Exchanged Mate
The Alpha’s Exchanged Mate – Chapter 185

Edwina’s POV…

Looking around the room that had clearly been tagged as out of bounds, I sat by the door, hugging my legs to my chest. Thinking about Xander’s announcement, I didn’t know how exactly I was supposed to act. And maybe I shouldn’t have acted unreasonably, walking out on him like that.

But I was overwhelmed by the news, and my emotions weren’t exactly clear. I should have suspected something was different about me, especially when I craved more sleep and felt some irritation in the mornings for the past week now.

Tears flowed freely from my eyes.

When Sonia was alive and pregnant with Star, I had wished to conceive, too, hoping Xander wouldn’t have a problem with it. I hoped he would be pleased with the thought of it.

Somehow, I feel like this doesn’t seem like the right time. To think that I had s*x with Xander this morning makes the guilt weigh more on my shoulders. I wish I had spent more time with Sonia while she was alive.

I would never forgive our father for doing this to my sister. I had to find a way to push Xander more to help find him, he has to pay for his sins, and I promise to ensure he dies by my bare hands. My heart ached badly; I wished I didn’t let excitement get the better part of me and stayed with her.

I felt guilty as I couldn’t help but blame myself for not paying extra attention. My hand drifted towards my belly. A life was growing inside of me. I can’t believe something I had wished for, for quite some time now, had come true.

I didn’t know if I was to laugh or cry, but the only thing that escaped my lips was a wail. Sitting out, I stared blankly at the wall of the room. The door barged open, and Becca came into sight, panting hard.

“I was just about to call out a search party to look for you. I had only thought otherwise and felt to check here.”

I turned my head towards her, “why are you here?”

“The alpha is almost losing his mind not being able to reach you. Where did you put your phone?” She asked me.

I opened my palms like my phone was supposed to appear all of a sudden. I remembered leaving the room from the bathroom. There was no way I could have had the mind to hold onto my phone.

Becca handed her phone to me after dialling his line back, “you should talk to him.”

Taking the phone from her, I feared he would yell at me for walking out of the room and not bothering to return. “Where is he?” I inquired.

“At the office.” Becca responded, “you didn’t know when he left for work?”

I didn’t respond as I placed the phone by my ear when he picked.

“Where in the world have you been hiding?” Xander’s voice bellowed into the receiver, sending a shiver down my spine.

“Sonia’s room,” I muttered in a low whisper, scared that he would rebuke me.

“You okay? You can talk to me if you want. And as for the pregnancy, we would find a way around it, don’t worry too much. We will be fine.” Xander said

It’s how he kept saying we. I felt like he considered both of us as partners. Or, he is probably too excited by the news of his child on the way.

“Thank you,” I responded absentmindedly, handing the phone back to Becca.

Becca had a worried look on her face. She took a seat next to me. “Star is taking a nap; she isn’t much of a handful. Tell me, I had only just seen you about an hour or less time ago.” She said.

“I’m pregnant,” I announced.

She gasped loudly, pulling me into a tight embrace. “This is such good news, Luna! I’m sure the alpha would be over the moon.” Becca clapped excitedly

“Clearly, I am not,” I told her, sounding frustrated.

“Do you feel bad about the news?”

“I feel like it’s not in my place to be happy with the death of Sonia. She had only died recently, and it seemed like I had already moved on.”

“Why are you beating yourself up so much for something that was not your fault?”

I sniffed as the tears rolled down my face. The tears I have shed for the past few hours might lead to me becoming partially blind. All I had done with my eyes aside seeing was cry.

“It’s all my fault, Becca. I should have searched for our father when Sonia had talked about it at first.” I insisted.

Becca held my hands, “you trying your best to ensure she gets justice and taking full responsibility for her daughter is enough, Edwina. None of this is your fault; this was really bound to happen.”

I leaned into her crying my eyes out, “she doesn’t deserve to be killed that way.”

Becca patted my back, “I know that. You can only do right by her when you are okay yourself. Don’t do this to yourself, Edwina; you would hurt your child.”

Resting my head on her shoulder, I heaved slowly. “do you think I would make a good mother?”

The pregnancy scared me too much on different terms, even though I had craved it. It didn’t occur to me that there would be some things in place that I would need to pay attention to. One of it being the fear of infecting my child with my disability. That would be a huge shame on the alpha. Xander would hate me for sure.

“You would make a perfect mother,” Becca responded.

“I don’t know about that, Becca. I’m carrying a child for the alpha, and you know I don’t have a wolf.” I told her, lifting my head off her shoulder.

“And?”

I stared at her like she had grown two heads. “Don’t be like that, Becca. You know what I’m talking about exactly.”

She chuckled, “you worry your pretty head too much. Let’s get you something nice to eat this morning, and then we can talk about this over breakfast. You would thin out at this point.”

Pulling me up, I decided against arguing with her as my body was sagging due to fatigue. Like the obedient sheep, I followed, letting her lead the way.