Let Me Love You Again
Chapter 68

Maya

I turned my back, trying to hide all the emotions that were going through my face. I knew if I even looked him in the eye for a second, I’d burst into tears.

So was it all a lie? Was everything that happened a lie? Was it his fear? Was it his not trusting me?

“You only married me because you didn’t trust me,” I said in a whisper, “Everything you said was bullshit? Wanting to not waste time, wanting to spend the rest of your life with me, wanting to build a family, that was all bullshit to tie me to you? For fear that Brad would come along and there was a chance that I would choose him over you? Do you really believe so little in my feelings for you?”

“No!” Nate immediately replied “Not so, I was afraid yes, but not that you could choose him, I was afraid that he could get in the middle of us!”

“Because you don’t trust me!” I turned and squeezed.

“I trust you! I don’t trust him!” Nate replied, holding Axel to himself.

I had a bitter laugh.

“Him? He has nothing to do with it! It’s you and me and no one else! All you had to do was talk to me!”

“I had already asked you to marry me! What would have changed? If I had told you, you would have had second thoughts about marriage?” he began to attack.

“Don’t you dare even assume that I’m the one in doubt here, because the one who doesn’t trust me is you! Do you really think that if you told me about Brad that I would run to him? That I would leave everything between us? Everything I feel for you? f**k Nate, I love you not him!”

“I never questioned your feelings for me! I was afraid for Axel!” Nate blurted out.

I frowned and looked at Axel holding onto Nate “For Axel?” I asked doubtfully.

“He wanted to talk, Maya! It doesn’t take a genius to figure out what he wanted! He would have had every right to take you to court, and most likely he would have been able to take Axel away from you and get custody! I couldn’t allow it! You know I’d do anything for him!” he blurted out again.

“We had already decided to give him your last name!”

“He could have contested it anyway! You needed an adoption, and that way you’d still lose custody, and if we were married, it wouldn’t have happened! I did what was right!”

“You should have talked to me!” I shouted again.

Axel began to cry in Nate’s arms, and I immediately rushed to him and plucked it out of his hands, and began to reassure him.

“What would have changed?” he asked calmer this time, “I tell you: nothing. So what’s the point of this? We were gonna get married anyway, and you were still gonna sign the adoption papers.”

“I wouldn’t have been in the dark about it,” I growled, “I really would have known your motives for our marriage and not all that crap you filled my head with.”

“It wasn’t bullshit. Maybe that was the reason for the rush, but I wanted to marry you. I just killed two birds with one stone. Don’t ever doubt this”

“You’re the first to doubt me,” I said with clenched teeth.

“I don’t doubt you,” he replied.

“If that were the case, you would have told me everything from the beginning instead of hiding things from me as if I were the last person you would trust on the planet,” I said as I turned to my room.

“You know it isn’t. Don’t accuse me of things that aren’t true! I did everything for you! For us!” he cried.

“Are you throwing something in my face?” I turned and looked at him.

“No! Holy s**t Maya! Don’t twist my words! Just listen to me!”

“I don’t want to listen to you! I don’t want to see you right now! You lied to me, Nate! You used my feelings for you to turn me around in your hands like I was a f*****g puppet! As if I were any member of any popular jury! I’m not just anyone!”

“f**k, I never said that! You’re the most important person to me! Stop being a baby!”

I glanced at him and turned back to my room.

“You can sleep alone tonight, I’m sure you won’t want to spend your time with a little girl,” I said before closing the door behind me, slamming it as hard as I could.

Nate

I looked at the door of the room and I put a hand in my hair. Everything went to s**t. It took nothing to burst my little bubble. I would have cursed that bastard my whole life.

Why the f**k did he have to come to Philadelphia? Why the f**k couldn’t he just live his life wherever the f**k he was? Why would he come and destroy my family again?

I knew I should have told Maya the truth, but at the time, I had thought of nothing but the fear of losing her, of losing Axel, and I had tried everything to stop it. Was I an a*****e? Absolutely yes.

But I would have done it a thousand more times if it meant protecting what belonged to me, and as gruff as it may seem, they belonged to me.

I’ve waited my whole life for Maya, and I certainly wouldn’t let some a*****e come in with some f*****g pretense and take her away from me.

It was supposed to go over my dead body.

I sighed again and started to put the kitchen in place, which was still upside down, and then I went to the room on tiptoe. I didn’t hear any noise from Maya, much less from Axel.

I opened the door slowly and I found them on the bed.

Maya was asleep with one arm around Axel, still wearing her clothes. I approached without making any noise and noticed that Maya had a red face and wet eyelashes. She fell asleep crying and I would punch myself, knowing that I was the reason for her tears.

I opened the closet and took a blanket, before gently laying it on her, covering her as best I could as I did with Axel sleeping happily with the pacifier in his mouth.

I closed the curtain and picked up some clothes before throwing myself in the bathroom and washing. Once cleaned and polished I went to the sofa. That night, I would have been touched like this, and I didn’t think it would be over soon.