I'm Not Yours, Alpha
I’m Not Yours, Alpha – Chapter 63

Madox’s body was bathed in sweat and he was panting as he thrust again and again into the wet, tight cavity that gladly received him. He kissed, leaving noticeable marks, the slender back beneath him. Delicious, beautiful.

How many times had he reached o****m since he had arrived in that house? I didn’t even know anymore. There were too many condoms on the floor used on the floor and he was exhausted but unwilling to stop. The omega pheromones were driving him crazy. If it wasn’t for the latex protection he was sure the little boy’s belly would be swollen with semen by now because he had knotted countless times.

She had only gotten out of bed at times when he had been faint to hydrate and feed them. He wasn’t iron either. But he always came back again minutes after filling their stomachs to resume the task of relieving the eager rut.

Besides, he couldn’t get the nape of his neck devoid of the omega in front of his eyes out of his head. Though it bothered him that the temporary mark on Julian had faded given the distance they had maintained.

He had never wavered at anything, least of all when he was so determined and his fangs hurt. He bit his lower l*p. He wanted to suck that spot, lick it, bite it, make it his. That was what his mind dictated, and yes it did feel delicious and right that thought. He wanted to bite it until the mark it left was so deep and obvious that no one would dare claim Julian wasn’t his.

He was hers.

From the day their paths crossed they were destined to be bound together by a red thread of will. Even if fate was such a bastard not to make them destined mates.

So he didn’t hesitate to lean in and lick the nape of her neck up and down. The soft vertebrae met his tongue and he insisted even more. It tasted so soft, so good.

The tip of her nose met the start of the large scar behind her head and she lifted her head. His dilated eyes took a few seconds to focus on her and with his fingers he pushed all the hair aside leaving the area completely uncovered. It always bothered him every time he saw her.

Who the hell had been able to hurt his little bird?

Julian beneath her body only m****d hugging the big pillow impregnated with Madox’s pheromones, totally aroused. It was very close to the end of his heat but that didn’t mean he was losing strength, on the contrary, having an alpha next to him stimulating him in every possible way only made him stronger. Every fiber of his body trembled at the constant invasion.

He purred under the alpha’s tongue as he again licked the back of his neck insistently and ran his head to the side to give him his full access. She wasn’t conscious of anything at that moment. His inner omega was the one on the surface and he craved more and more. Especially that her nape would finally be bitten.

He felt the tip of the man’s fangs behind him scrape the skin stimulating it and he grew anxious. He m****d in protest at stalling the moment so long and stirred. A large hand held him still in place.

Madox scraped the skin in an attempt to soothe the pain in his canines but to no avail.

Licking…biting…marking…..

It was the only thing on his mind.

She moved her h**s faster seeking his climax and it wasn’t long before she stopped him by thrusting in with a deep thrust. He let out a high m**n as the o****m hit him again and he spilled into that warm, knotting cavity for what seemed like the last time.

He squinted his eyes fully glistening and shining totally inhuman and opened his mouth leaving his fangs fully in view and descended hard.

B***d ran down the white skin of Julian’s neck.

But Julian…

Julian…

He felt nothing…

Madox kept lying on top of the omega’s body who had become very still and asleep under him, after 15 minutes waiting for the knot to give way. The alpha did not have a good expression and his arm was throbbing. Arm where now was the mark of his own bite.

In the end he had failed. He had not marked it as his instincts marked. Because in the end he knew it was useless. Julian had found his destined mate and if he tied him to him he only destined her to suffer for he would always long to be by the side of the one he had been truly destined for.

Because that’s how cruel f*****g life was.

He looked at the back of Julian’s neck with disappointment and pain? That had been his last chance and he had run away. He was a coward at the end of it all. But he preferred the boy’s happiness above all else. It was something he had decided since they had parted at the hotel and as the days passed.

The alpha felt how the knot was already small enough that it could come out without hurting him and he pulled back his h*p, only to realize that something wasn’t right. It didn’t feel right.

Frowning he sat up and his suspicions were well-founded. A thin whitish line was oozing from inside Julian’s body that was not from his own lubrication. That was semen. His semen.

Madox became alarmed and pulled off the condom. It was indeed torn. And most likely from when he was ripping it open like crazy with his teeth. He had forgotten how sharp his fangs were and now there was this huge mess.

Shit. And now what was he doing.

He dropped onto the bed in a daze. He’d knotted inside Julian with virtually no protection. He wasn’t an imbecile to know the consequences of that. Although…he’d done it near the end of his heat where the alpha hormones were already at an all time low.

There was a chance that nothing had happened.

But…

What if he was pregnant?

The thought terrified and excited him in equal measure. Ahhh, he was going crazy. Now he couldn’t think with his mind like someone normal. Besides, he had just succored the omega in his heat. He wasn’t in his right mind. She needed a good night’s sleep after 30+ hours of practically just s*x and then she would call him, set up a date and talk to him as it should be and explain the situation.

If he had gotten pregnant, he would take responsibility with all that that entailed.

The thought alone made him shudder. Just a few months ago he would have asked Dominic to punch him in the face if he had thought of anything like what he was deciding now.

Taking a deep breath and somewhat calmer he focused. First he had to clean up the mess in the room. And get back to his own before Julian woke up, he was sure his presence would not be well received despite all the extra help. He had already made that clear to him.

And so he did. His body felt truly revitalized though exhausted. Definitely s*x during heat was an excellent thing.

She showered quickly after picking up the used condoms and changing the sheets being careful not to wake Julian. He had cleaned his body although on his skin there was evidence of the fiery s*x act. With that it wasn’t as if she could do anything at the moment.

Under the water, her arm stung and thin threads of b***d ran, but she did nothing. It was a reminder of his own cowardice.

Julian opened his eyes slowly at the piercing sound of the cell phone on the nightstand. His head throbbed as did his body. He couldn’t remember how he had gotten there, but for the moment he had to know who was interrupting his sleep.

He reached out his hand, which weighed a ton, and grabbed it, bringing it to his ear.

-His voice came out extremely hoarse.

-How is my precious omega?

Julian didn’t answer her. The last thing he wanted at that time of the day was Nolan f*****g around with his own.

-I woke you up,” he sounded flirtatious, “I don’t care, it’s better this way. He called to tell you to pick things up early. I’ll be back at the end of the week, I did the job in half the time like the efficient alpha that I am. So when I call you it will be directly from the airport to pick you up. We will return to my country by cruise ship. I’ve already made reservations in one of the best suites.

Julian must have been thrilled about that?

-You just wanted to tell me that, Nolan,” he sounded indifferent.

-I don’t like your tone honey and by the way I forgot something…LOCK ALL THE CELL PHONE CONTACTS AND THEN DELETE THEM BUT MINE- he ordered in the alpha’s voice and Julian’s body trembled. His fingers itched- Then I’ll leave you doll, I have a job unlike you- and hung up.

Julian couldn’t stop his body and fingers as they began to comply with the order given by the alpha no matter how much he didn’t want to. That was how strong Nolan’s voice was, able to make him succumb even through the phone.

Once he was done he let go of the phone with a silent tear on his cheek. Why the hell hadn’t he been born a beta? Then his problems wouldn’t be so bad.

She sighed and decided that she had to have her mind focused on something else as to not think about Nolan, such as her heat. He had realized that it had started before he lost consciousness. And that was when he noticed that there were still traces in that room of an alpha pheromone. Too bad he couldn’t smell it.

But an alpha had been there. He squeezed his arms. The only one who could have been there was none other than Madox. He was the only one who had access to her house.

But if he himself had told her he didn’t want him back in her life.

She walked over to the dining room table when she saw a small piece of paper on the table.

I’ll call you tomorrow.

She recognized Madox’s handwriting. There was no doubt about it. He was the one who had helped her in the heat. He was neither dirty nor thirsty. His body was as it was every time that happened.

He had been taking care of it.

She bit her lower l*p. His chest tightened and he brought his hand to the back of his neck. No, it wasn’t marked.

Why?

Why hadn’t he?

That was the only escape he had. And now all that was left for him to do was follow his cursed destiny at the side of the man who had given him the scar on his head.

Yes, Julian was recovering all his memories. And many of them were not good ones at all.

And even though he was a weak omega. This time he had no intention of sitting idly by.