I'm Not Yours, Alpha
I’m Not Yours, Alpha – Chapter 47

Julian straightened up in bed holding his throbbing head, so bad it was making him dizzy. The room was in darkness even though outside it was announcing that dusk was beginning to fall. She searched her memory for what the hell had happened and the last memory was of the house where Aidan and Dominic lived, a luxurious yet cozy apartment. After that her consciousness had gone dark. He had blacked out.

Then I could only come to the conclusion that I was at their house still. wasn’t I?

There was a constant pheromone hovering inside that huge room, which somehow didn’t make her feel bad at all. Rather, it was welcoming, protective, enveloping him in a possessive way. It was so familiar that he found himself closing his eyes and letting it intoxicate him. He couldn’t define whose it was exactly but it made him feel too good. She didn’t know who they belonged to but her mind went straight to the alpha who was the center of her everything, of her emotional stability, of her care, of her feelings.

And his doubts were completely blurred when the door opened.

-You woke up, my little bird, how do you feel?

Madox’s big body closed the door behind him with a tray in one hand. He wore only jeans that danced on his h**s and a thin dark pullover that marked every muscle in his body. If he were naked it wouldn’t make much difference and Julian could only swallow dryly and lower his head in a nod. The alpha’s tousled hair was a total sexy bombshell that Madox apparently didn’t realize. Or maybe he did.

-The alpha set the tray on the bedside table and sat down across from him, feeling the temperature with his large hand on the omega’s neck, “Your fever is down,” he smiled contentedly.

-And he wasn’t lying at all, there were constant pulses that moved by the moment to the area where his scar was, there it even became unbearable. Julian had to massage the area.

His fingers were joined by rougher ones but they immediately touched the exact spots that made him let out a m**n of relief. It did not cease but diminished.

-I’m worried that you still have some symptoms after having the injection,” Madoz’s voice was different from other times and Julian shuddered a little. He was kind and gentle in his own way, but he sounded annoyed.

-I’ll be fine a little later, it often happens to me when I’m stressed,” he smiled, lying.

Madox studied him up and down with his sharp gaze and the younger couldn’t help but lower his head again in submission. The alpha was tense and that was not good for him. An alpha like that was unstable and always the omegas ended up being the target of his frustration. Julian didn’t want to be hurt. Not again.

Without knowing why those thoughts came to his mind, a distinct trembling ran through him so violently that he had to hold his hands trying to control himself. Arms wrapped around him and drew him into the warmth of a comforting embrace.

-Calm down,” Madox murmured into his hair, “You’re too sensitive, I’m not going to do anything to you,” her hands stroked his back gently.

He was worried. He had taken Julian home and since he had put her in his bed she had noticed his reaction. She was uneasy despite being unconscious. Her brow was furrowed and what worried him most was that while giving him a thorough examination he had noticed that on the hand-held pheromone meter he always kept handy for emergencies, they were at rather alarming values.

He knew that omegas could be greatly affected when there was a confrontation between two alphas. That said, a single alpha could upset one or several omegas just as much if it got really serious. But his values didn’t rise as high as Julian’s. Even his regular tests while he was admitted, or before each of his heat cycles weren’t altered like that. Something had happened and he was sure Aidan was lying to him.

He kissed the crown of her head, then her forehead, eyes nose and the corner of her lips, stroking her cheeks with his thumbs.

-Have I ever been mean to you?” she spoke so softly against his lips that Julian barely heard it. He shook his head slightly, “Then you don’t have to be afraid of me,” she kissed his lower l*p, sucking it between hers, she wanted to calm him down and he knew how, “So stop trembling like a scared little bunny, I only like to be the bad wolf when you’re naked under me and with your legs spread open.

The not very innocent comment made the omega let out a weak laugh and as if it had been an order his body relaxed stopping almost convulsing.

-Much better,” the alpha kissed him again but this time he opened his lips with his tongue and swept all his insides with desire and possessiveness.

Julian, as he did every time, let him take control, his alpha purring inside him at the willingness he sought and few gave him. One of her hands rested on the back of his neck steadying him, while the other ran down his back to rest on one of his buttocks without any demure. The omega had a body that turned him on even though he was a boy.

No one prevented him from touching it, and he enjoyed touching it, a lot, too much. To the point that there were times when he just wanted to be doing it for hours on end, even after he had s*x with any of his lovers. After all he was a man without commitment, but in recent times and since Dominic had stabilized with his omega, the one who would later corner him and get every last word out of him, something inside him was changing.

It was a strange feeling, especially every time Dominic brought up the subject of Julian and what he was doing with him. Every time night came and he tried to sleep, his friend’s damn words hammered in his head and he wanted to call him to tell him even from the evil that he was going to die, but then he would take a breath and mentally beat himself over and over again. Because he was right.

S*x with other people just didn’t feel the same anymore. Usually it was to quell her damn s****l lividity, too high and sometimes uncomfortable. His body craved offspring hard so he had no problem putting it on the spot. He had known how to deal with it over the years. No feelings, no emotions involved, just raw hard s*x to satiate himself. He always used a smile and honeyed words to hide the fact that he used them, that’s how shitty he was. But at that point he didn’t care anymore.

Too bad with Julian it had always been different. From the first moment he had broken every one of his own rules. No kissing, no feeling, no relating more than necessary, and so an infinity until he got to the last and not least, rather the main one, he doesn’t take anyone home. And there she was now with the omega underneath and him stretching his body between her thighs, eating her mouth like there was no tomorrow. He was always like that, losing his mind completely with that little omega to the point where he didn’t know what he was doing to her.

But of one thing he was sure. Julian needed something better than him. Someone who really valued him, not like him who just got carried away by the hundreds of strange and pleasurable stimuli and sensations he got from him. It was hard to admit it but he was a jerk, a big one.

She pulled away from the boy with a m**n of disgust despite everything, she could be kissing him until her lips broke. Julian just stood that vulnerable with his lips open, swollen and wet and his eyes glazed over, an utterly tantalizing sight but Madox closed his eyes and sat up between his thighs kissing his bent knee.

-You’d better keep resting, eat some food and sleep, tomorrow I’ll take you home, we’ll pick up some of your things and you’ll stay here until we go on our trip to Hawaii- she couldn’t help but run her hand down his snowy thigh running the fabric of the pullover she had put on him to make him more comfortable. His clothes were now folded on one of the armchairs in the bedroom furniture set.

That seemed to catch Julian by surprise and the haziness in his eyes suddenly dissipated.

-Am I going to stay at your house?” he specifically emphasized his house.

-Yes, I don’t trust you to take care of your health as you should,” he justified himself, rather he didn’t want to take his eyes off him until he knew what was really going on, “We’ll get what you need and whatever is missing for the trip I’ll buy for you,” by that time his fingers were playing with the bottom edge of his underwear, wanting to just rip it off.

The omega nodded without complaint very aware of the alpha’s touches that made his skin literally goose bumps. He knew how to touch it.

So that was Madox’s house. It was the first time there and somehow, even though he had only seen his room it was very Madox. Everything indicated it was his. The things that were there, the neutrality of the colors, the exaggeration of everything, the huge bed, the furniture, even the TV that must have been one of the biggest on the market because it was almost the size of the wall. A personal cinema.

On the other hand, he was relieved. He hadn’t brought up the subject of Nolan and what had happened that afternoon so, apparently, Aidan hadn’t mentioned anything on the subject. He sighed with relief, when his cell phone on the nightstand rang.

Madox leaned over and grabbed it for him, handing it to him, but not before glancing at the unfamiliar number on the screen. Julian blinked. He wasn’t identified and very few people called him but somehow that number was familiar to him. From a long time ago, he was talking years really. It hadn’t changed. His head throbbed as a faint memory wanted to make itself present. He frowned.

He already knew whose number it was.