Claimed By My Three Alphas
Chapter 141

LEVI

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I was seated at the hilltop as I watched the grassy fields and planes. My eyes were fixated on a particular spot but my mind had wandered far away. I kicked my feet back and forth as I drowned myself in the guilt that enveloped me. Ever since I left the cabin last night, I couldn't sleep, and neither could I bring myself to face Amery or anyone else. Especially not after what I had done to her last night.

She stayed with me and did her best to offer her support to me when I needed it. I took advantage of her kindness by having s*x with her and I just discarded her afterwards without a proper explanation as to why I left.

On one hand, was Amery and on the other hand were my brothers who I had sworn to protect with my life. What am I supposed to do now? How am I supposed to face all of this alone? I took a deep sigh and sat there quietly as mom's voice chanted repeatedly. "...I asked you to protect them, Levi. I begged you to not let anything happen to them but you went ahead to kill them with your own two hands...." My mother's voice echoed through my ears over and over again. I still wasn't able to bring myself to accept that nightmare. It wasn't just a nightmare, it was my mother telling me how disappointed she was of me.

I had let her down. I promised to take care of them but I didn't. Instead, I went ahead to do the very same thing that I knew would kill them. I knew from the onset that keeping Amery close to us would be detrimental. I knew that her being around us would bring nothing but utter chaos but I still damned the consequences and went ahead with it and now, my brothers are going to pay the price due to my actions.

My mother must be turning in her grave at this point. She must be regretting the fact that she gave birth to me. I have let her and my brothers down. I have also let Amery down as well because now, I have to choose who to protect and who to let go but I can't seem to decide.

Why is it so hard? Making a decision has never been an issue for me. I always did it with ease but now, It felt like I was trapped between a rock and a hard place. But why though? Is it because I am slowly starting to develop feelings for her?

But it can't be possible. I don't like Amery. We only had s*x but I have no plans of being with her. With that being said, I think I finally know what to do now. Standing up to my feet, I dusted myself and headed back to camp. It was almost sunset and I have to put my plans into motion if I have to set things right again.

I arrived at camp later that night and caught sight of Natasha going into her cabin. She gave me a weird but knowing look before walking away. I didn't care about her in the slightest and I am not worried about it either.

I made my way towards Amery's cabin and knocked on the door. Luckily, she was the one who opened it. She didn't look surprised to see me but I could tell that she was mad at me.

"What do you want?" She asked, closing the door behind her. She folded her hands over her chest as she watched me with intent.

"I want to talk to you." I said out loud.

"But I don't want to talk to you." She retorted angrily. "Have you forgotten what you did last night? You pushed me away and then told me to leave you alone so why are you here?"

"I'm here because I want to talk to you," I whispered truthfully. "I know that what I said last night was out of line and that it hurt you and that's why I'm here to make amends and apologize for it. I want to take responsibility for my actions so please..."

"It was never my intention to speak to you in such a manner and ever since I left the cabin last night, I have been regretting everything that I said to you. I am truly sorry Amery and I am asking for a chance to redeem myself again." I apologized, hoping that she would at least try to understand my plight.

"Yesterday has been a rollercoaster of emotions for me and I wasn't able to handle it. My feelings were overwhelming to the point that I thought I had lost myself. I don't expect you to understand and I'm not trying to make excuses either but I just want you to believe my every word." I went on and I noticed her facial features soften at my words.

"But it won't happen again and to prove that I am telling the truth, I prepared something special for the both of us since I kind of ruined the last one." I said and her interest was piqued.

She smiled at me. "Really?"

"Of course." I nodded in affirmation. "Would you like to join me for dinner?" I asked with an outstretched hand.

"Dinner?" She repeated. "But we're in camp and there are no restaurants nearby so...." She trailed off.

"It's not here. I planned a surprise dinner and I asked the security to give me a few hours with you outside the gates. We'll be back before you even know it." I insisted and the smile on her face gradually died down to be replaced by a frown.

"Outside the gates? Alone with you in the woods?" She questioned and I knew exactly then what she meant by that statement. The last time I had offered to take her on a walk, I killed her so I could understand her hesitation. "I don't think teachers would like it if they found out that we left the camp together without any supervision."

"And that's why we're going after lights out. So that no one would find out." I replied but she went dead silent as she gave me the look.

"I know what you're thinking Amery."

"Do you?" She questioned. "The last time I trusted you to take a walk with you without supervision, you killed me Levi and now you're asking me to take another walk with you again into the woods without supervision?"

"I know but I promise that this time would be different Amery." I declared adamantly." I promise that I won't do anything to hurt you and that I would bring you back here in one piece. You have my word for it. I know that you don't trust me at all but I am asking that you have a little faith in me that I won't harm you."

"You're right that I am scared Levi." She confessed. "But the fact of the matter is that I actually do trust you. I know that you have changed. The Levi standing in front of me is different from the Levi that had tried to kill me countless times before. You actually care about me." Hearing her say those words of affirmation to me gnawed at my conscience. Am I doing the right thing or am I about to make another mistake?

"I'm just worried that we will be going out alone in a place where no one knows us. What if we go missing or worse?"

"It's not that far and we will come back sooner than you think." I promised and she nodded her head.

"I'll go get changed then. I'll meet you out here in five minutes." She informed me before dashing into her cabin. I took the opportunity to enter my cabin and pick up the potion myself. I brought it out from my bag and stuffed some into another bottle before putting it into my pocket. No matter what happens tonight, everything is going to be swift and smooth. I will make sure to carry out my plans quickly and discreetly so that no one would notice a thing. I just hope that Amery will find it in her heart to forgive me. I closed the door to my cabin and waited outside for her. She stepped out minutes later and we both sneaked out of camp. I took her towards the hill where the waterfall cave was located. I had set up a little romantic evening for the both of us. "Are we there yet?" Amery asked and I stopped in my tracks to produce a blindfold that I had been hiding in my pockets.

"Almost, but you'll have to close your eyes to see the final surprise." I waved the blanket at her face and after many pros and cons, she finally agreed to it. I led her to the cave before taking it off.

"Oh my goodness!" She exclaimed. Her eyes took in everything in front of her. There was a table of food decorated with candles and I had reserved a seat for both of us.

"When?" She threw her hands up in the air. "How did you do all of this? When you said dinner, I honestly wasn't expecting something like this at all."

"What were you expecting then?" I asked with an arched brow. "A bed and blankets in the middle of the cave?"

She rolled her eyes at me. "That's not what I meant silly. I'm just surprised that you did all of this, that's all."

"Well I wanted to do something special for you." I watched as she skipped around the place in admiration and in that moment, I slipped the contents of the bottle into her cup. "I may not be a romantic Amery but I just wanted to show you how much I care about you and how important you are to me." I said and she turned to face me. "You do know that I care about you right?"

She nodded once. "Of course I do Levi. I have always known that you had some goodness inside of you. I have always believed in you too." She palmed my face with both hands with a smile on her face.

I didn't know how to feel about this but I know that there's no going back now. She may hate me after this but at least she would be able to die peacefully without going through the stress of seeing anyone of us suffer.

"Let's eat." I pulled a chair for her to sit before doing the same. I don't know why I feel conflicted even though I know that it's the right thing to do.