Butterscotch Souls: The Morningstar Series: Book 4
Butterscotch Souls – Chapter 36

After a couple more rounds on the forest floor with my mate we were found. It was the same few that had returned back to the school for lunch. Ambrose was furious with them already, it didn’t help that they found us in the middle of s*x.

At that point Ambrose had given up that he would be found at all. He had me on my hands and knees with my a*s high in the air, balls deep inside of me, when they showed up.

Honestly, I have no idea how they didn’t hear us. Not only are the both of us moaning loudly like we are in the comfort of our own home and not the middle of the woods, but you could very well hear and smell our love making. Our skin slapping together, the squishy sound of how wet I was, and don’t even get me started on the smell.

Ambrose has been smelling stronger to me lately. Everytime we f****d, espeically four times in a row in the middle of the woods, his scent would wrap around me. It mixed with my own and created something that I just couldn’t get enough of.

My mate didn’t even stop f*****g me once his trainees found us. They all flipped out and he told them to go the f**k away. Well, he more or less told them to go back to the training grounds and do push ups until he got back.

I’m not even sure he looked up at them when they noticed us. They were all thoroughly disgusted and it was pretty funny honestly.

Once we finally returned to the school, Tate was out of class. The trainees were on push ups in the tripple digits. I left Ambrose to punish them and went to get our son.

After we were all home Ambrose took me out back and taught me how to meditate. He left me alone as he and Tate went for a run. When they got back we put Tate to bed and then worked on me using Ambrose’s powers.

This went on for two weeks. We trained, I meditiated, Ambrose and I could barely keep our hands off of each other, it’s been wild. I wasn’t able to use much of my mates power.

It was disappointing to say the least. I was able to make gusts of wind or grow a single flower. At this point Tate was better at magic than me. Teleporting was out of the question as well.

The only thing I was able to do right was meditiate. There were a few times that I heard Adria. It was bits and pieces of her but she was there. She would push against the invisible barrier and I would push with her. There were a few times that I felt like we were getting really close, but I would pass out from exertion.

Ambrose had brought me to training every day as well and I was finally able to show him what I’m made of. After having Tate my training slacked a lot. I wasn’t able to take Ambrose down but he did say he was impressed with my stances and strength. He put me up against every member that he trained.

I took them all down easily, even Axton. The only one I had trouble with was Karla. She’s a smart cookie, but I still managed.

There was a certain strength I had that no one else did. I suppose I should have guessed that after my meeting with the Gods. Tyr did say that he blessed me with strength. He also said that I would develop a thirst of fighting, but I don’t think I will.

I still don’t like it. I’m good at it, and I will fight if I have to, but I don’t like the violence. Ambrose says that it is most likely due to how I grew up.

Every day was the same. I would go to work with Ambrose and train like all the others there. We would pick Tate up and have dinner. Then I would sit in the grass and meditate while my son and mate went on runs. Occasionally I would get on Kohen’s back and join them. I loved those moments. It made me even more excited to shift myself.

Today is Thursday and Ambrose and I are preparing for Kiah and the rest of my old pack to arrive tomorrow. Belle has arranged for housing. I guess that Kiah and Tia have been talking. Tia told me that there were ten adults in total coming and a few kids. I wondered who the kids belong to.

“Concentrate my love.” Ambrose said.

I am sitting in the grass outside of our home as Tate and Ambrose string lights on our back porch. We decided to have a barbeque here the day that my old pack arrives. Ambrose, Max, and Robby spent the last few hours setting up grills and tables around the backyard.

Tate and Ziggy were playing and Ziggy even surprised me with lining my porch in vines of flowers. The shy little boy is just the sweetest thing ever. Belle had taken Daisy away from me an hour ago to go home and bake for our guests tomorrow. The way that they all worked together just for me had my heart warming.

I, however, have been being forced to continue my day like normal. Training. Trainig that is getting me no where.

“I can’t focus. I’m too excited!” I told my mate.

It’s true. I’m buzzing with excitement. I haven’t seen the pack in so long. My thoughts were over run with the reunion I was about to have.

“Baby I know you are excited but you need to focus. You’re not even keeping up the block.” Ambrose said.

He demanded that I keep up the mental block when I meditiated. I think that it’s total s**t. I hate having a block up between us. In fact, I hate it so much that there were several times I would purposely take it down while he was running. I felt safer this way.

And I don’t like not feeling the connection between us. It was those times that I felt Adria push harder but Ambrose didn’t believe me. Afterall, I haven’t come any closer.

“I don’t like the block.” I said as I crossed my arms.

Ambrose sighed. I think he is starting to get frustrated with me and this whole thing. I’m totally useless. I can barely use any of his magic. My fighting skills are the only thing to have improved. I can even take Max down now.

As long as it’s a battle of just our strength. And it also takes me a bit. Ambrose says the struggle is good for me though.

“Epperly it distracts you from meditating.” Ambrose argued.

“No it doesn’t.” I argued back.

Ambrose sighed and shook his head.

“Fine. Do whatever you want then. Why train at all at this rate?” He mumbled.

My eyes went wide and Ambrose froze. I immediately put the block up. Nothing is worse than feeling Ambrose’s disappointment in me. Tears pooled in my eyes and I faught them back. I stood to my feet to go into the house. Ambrose grabbed my arm when I walked past him.

“Babe I didn’t mean that how it came out.. I just..” He trailed off.

“You’re just frustrated and disappointed. I get it.” I said and shook myself out of his hold.

Before Ambrose could say anything else I walked into our house. I made my way to our bedroom, then to our bathroom, where I shut and locked the door. The tears started to fall down my cheeks.

I’ve been extremely emotional lately. It was partly why I wanted to stay connected to Ambrose. I’m not sure what is going on with me. I thought that it was the stress of everything but I’m not sure anymore.

I’ve been working so hard all week and have nothing to show for it. I’m not any closer to connecting with Adria. I still can’t take Ambrose down. My powers are laughable at this point. I’m just a big mess. Tate would do better in a fight right now than me. I’m a failure.

I sat on the edge of the bathtub and put my face in my hands. This is a disaster. I’m a disaster. Even my mate thinks so.

A low growl sounded in my head. I jumped slightly from it.

What the hell?

Adria? I asked in my head.

Nothing.

I sighed.

She is breaking through more and more every day but it isn’t enough. I’m still not strong enough. Anger quickly replaced my devastation. I stood up and looked at myself in the mirror. No glowing eyes, no wolf features, nothing.

Another low growl sounded in my head and before I knew what was happening, my fist connected with the mirror. It shattered and the pieces fell across the counter. I took a few steps back and looked at what I had just done. My back hit the glass wall of our shower. I slid down it and pulled my knees to my chest. Hugging myself I felt the tears surface again.

Now I’m back to sobbing like a baby. Like I said, I’m a f*****g mess. I’ve been having a harder time controlling myself. I can’t do anything right.

A soft knock to the door startled me.

“Baby.. open the door.” Ambrose said softly through the door.

“Go away.” I yelled.

I could hear him sigh through the door.

“I am not going anywhere until you let me in there Epperly.” He warned me.

“Then I guess you’ll be waiting a while.” I stated. That anger was starting to come back.

“Baby… please let me in.. I’m sorry for what I said. I just want you to get your wolf back. I shouldn’t have gotten frustrated with you.” He said.

It wasn’t his words that hurt me this way but the emotions that flowed through our bond. Ambrose could tell me over and over again that he isn’t frustrated or disappointed, but I felt it. Now I’m too scared to take the block down.

What if he feels like I’m useless too?

Another sob broke free from me.

“f**k this.” I heard Ambrose say before the door was busted open.

It fell completely to the floor with a loud thud. I looked from it up to my fuming mate. My bottom l*p trembled and another sob tumbled from my chest.

“Great. Now you’re mad at me too.” I said as I placed my face into my knees.

I felt myself being lifted up. My head snapped up to see Ambrose carrying me to our bed. He sat down and held me in his arms.

“Baby I am not mad at you.” He said softly.

“You looked mad.” I blubbered.

Ambrose nodded.

“I was very mad, but not at you, at myself. I shouldn’t of upset you to the point where you lock me out. I shouldn’t force you to put up the block if you don’t want to. I just don’t want to distract you. Your emotions have been all over the place lately and I don’t want to add to it.” He told me.

“I’m sorry that I can’t do anything right.” I blubbered as I buried my face into his chest.

“Hey now.” Ambrose said softly as he grabbed my face between his hands.

He forced my eyes to his before continuing.

“You are still learning baby. You’re going to get the hang of it in no time. It might be the seal in your mind that holds you back. You’re already getting closer to reaching Adria. I know you can do it.” He told me.

“B-but you get s-so frustrated a-and d-d-disappointed in me.” I stuttered out. I’m a blubbering mess. It’s a bit ridiculous.

“Baby I’m never frustrated or disappointed in you. Why would you think that?” He asked me.

“I c-can feel i-it.” I told him as I placed my palm on his chest over his shirt.

Ambrose gave me a knowing look.

“Baby those emotions are never towards you I promise you.” He told me.

“W-what?” I asked.

“Those emotions are at myself my love. I get frustrated with myself because I can’t help you or because I make you mad by telling you to put up the block. I get disappointed because I should be able to do more for you. I’m your mate. I should be able to help you more than this.” He told me.

I sniffled.

“So… you.. you don’t think that I’m useless?” I asked.

Ambrose’s eyes went wide.

“No baby. Never. You have come so far since being here. I’m so proud of you and you should be proud of yourself.” He told me as he wiped my tears away.

“Really?” I asked surprised.

My mate nodded.

“Absolutely my love. Even Max has noticed the change in you.” He told me.

I sniffled again.

“I thought that I wasn’t getting anywhere.” I admitted.

Ambrose gave me a smile.

“Maybe not with my magic but with other things you have. You are an exceptional fighter. Your dedication to your wolf is admirable. You are doing amazing baby.”

I returned his smile.

“Thank you.” I whispered.

“Anything for you my love.” He said and then kissed my forehead.

I pulled his face down and pressed my lips to his. I can never get enough of Ambrose these days. Every chance I get I’m trying to get him naked. I deepened our k**s and slipped my tongue along my mates.

Ambrose growled and it vibrated through my body. It ignited something inside of me and I moved to straddle him, all while keeping my lips on his. Ambrose gripped my h**s and I knew he was feeling just as horny as me.

There was a knock in the background and Ambrose pulled away from me. I didn’t care though. I just started kissing down my mates neck and reaching my hands up his shirt.

“Epperly I think-“

“Don’t think.” I interrupted. “Just feel.” I grabbed his hands and moved one to my a*s and the other to my breast. “Feel me.”

This is what it’s like anytime we are alone together. I get hooked on everything that is Ambrose. It pulls me into a trance. A trance that I can push through the bond and force my mate to feel. It took me two days to realize what I was doing. It was all unintentional, at first anyways.

Ambrose squeezed my a*s through my jeans. His other hand moved to slide under my shirt and back to my breast. The knock came again but we both ignored it this time. Ambrose placed his lips on the mark on my neck and I gasped when he nibbled down on me.

“I am sorry to interrupt but your son is asking for you.” Came a deep voice through our door.

Who is that? They sound so familiar. Who cares right now anyways?

Ambrose pulled away from me again. He looked at the door in confusion. I grabbed his chin with one hand and brought his attention back to me. I pressed my lips to his and soon the voice was forgotten.

My mate lifted my shirt from my head. Then I took his off as well. There was no more knocking. Ambrose reached around me to undo my bra with one hand. He slipped the material off of me before kissing down my neck. Just when he was about to take one of my n*****s into my mouth, our moment was shattered, by one small voice.

“Mommy? Daddy? Are you guys gonna come out?” Tate asked.

It was like a cold bucket of water being thrown over us. Ambrose and I froze. His mouth is open and I can feel his hot breath on my n****e. I shoved on his chest and he frowned at me.

“We will be right out baby I’m sorry.” I called back to him.

“Okay Mommy.” Tate said before I could hear his little stomps fade away.

Ambrose grabbed my thighs and lifted me up. He placed me down on the bed next to him. Then he grabbed his shirt I tossed to the floor and pulled it over my head.

“What the hell has been going on with us Epperly?” Ambrose asked me.

I looked up at to find him completely serious.

“Isn’t this how all mates are?” I asked confused.

“No, it’s not. You have some kind of hold on me whenever you get horny. Which seems to be every waking moment for you.” He said teasingly.

I crossed my arms and rolled my eyes.

“Here I thought we were having fun.” I said.

“Oh, we are definitely having fun.” Ambrose said as he bent down to k**s my lips.

I wrapped my arms around his neck but then he pulled away.

“Why are you always denying me?” I asked with a pout.

Ambrose chuckled.

“I am not. Our son just came to get us.” He told me.

I sighed.

“Little c**k block.” I mumbled.

Ambrose let out a loud laugh that had him doubling over. His laughter is my favorite sound, next to our son’s laughter. It’s almost contagious and I started to giggle.

“What?” I asked.

Ambrose shook his head.

“Who taught you that term?” He asked.

I shrugged.

“Acaisia may have mentioned it.” I said.

“Acaisia is probably the worst influence out of all of us.” He said shaking his head.

I shrugged. “I like her.”

“You like everyone my love.” Ambrose told me. “Why don’t you relax a little bit. Take a bath. I’ll finish up outside with Tate and cook dinner.” Ambrose suggested.

I sighed. “That sounds lovely honestly.” I said.

Ambrose kissed my head and left the room. I went the the bathroom and ran myself a bath. Once the bubbles were overflowing I turned off the water. I stripped down and sunk into the hot water.

I sighed deeply. This is the life. I’m in love with a wonderful man. We created the most amazing child together. I have friends and family. I feel safe.

Never in my life did I think I would come this far. After being on the run for so long I wasn’t even sure I would make it for another day. Now I have all of this. This amazing and beautiful life full of love. Tears filled my eyes. I’m so happy.

Why am I crying if I’m this happy? But I can’t stop.

A knock came from the door that connects to my bedroom.

“Hey baby you alright in there? You’re sending some weird emotions through our bond.” Ambrose said through the door.

I wiped my eyes and took a deep breath.

“I’m alright love. Just thinking about how happy I am here. I’ll be out in just a few minutes.” I replied. Ambrose didn’t need more reason to be worried about me. He doesn’t need to know I’m in here crying like an i***t.

“Okay baby. I love you.” He said and more tears filled my eyes.

“I love you too.”

As soon as I was sure my mate was gone I let more tears fall. He loves me. Why am I acting like I didn’t already know that? What the hell has been going on with me?

Shaking my head I decided to get out. I started to drain the tub and then stood up and wrapped a towel around myself. Drying off the best I could I decided to wrap myself in one of the bathrobes that are hanging up. So soft and cuddly. Ugh! I am wearing this for the rest of the day.

I took another towel and began drying my hair. Tossing it to the side I stared at my reflection in the mirror. My skin looks brighter. I no longer have dark circles under my eyes that I had for so many years. Now that I can actually get a good amount of sleep and on an actual schedule.

My eyes also look brighter. The whites are whiter and the purple and gold seemed to almost glow slightly. My hair, even wet, seems fuller and silkier. Overall, I just look healthier. I wonder if that is due to my new stress-free life, or if it’s my mate.

My mate.

I watched in the mirror as my eyes started to swirl a glowing yellow. Adria is close to the surface. I can feel her pushing but I still can’t hear her. She always stirs when I think about Ambrose or when we are close, which is almost constantly now.

Closing my eyes I thought about my mate. His tall and muscular frame. His blonde soft hair. His deep blue eyes that always seem to pull me in.

Those perfectly full lips. His straight nose and strong jaw. The way it feels when he runs his hands across my body. The way his eyes darken with l**t that is only for me. I can almost feel his hands roaming my body, circling me with his warmth. His lips touching my skin softly.

Wait…

My eyes snapped open to find my mate…. doing exactly what I was just fantasizing about. His arms are wrapped around me and roaming my body over the robe.

Ambrose has his head tucked into the crook of my neck. His lips are gently brushing against my mark. I shuttered when his tongue flicked out to lick me.

“A-Ambrose..” I breathed out.

The only response I got was a grunt. He didn’t even look up. In the mirror I could see that my eyes are still glowing. Adria is still pushing but I am much more distracted now. All I can feel is a lustfilled fog coming through the bond. My skin seemed to almost glow even more than I already thought.

Then Ambrose started sucking on my mark. My eyes rolled back as the plessure racked my body. He slowly undid the belt of my robe and then pulled it open.

Finally his head moved up. His deep blue eyes connected with my yellow ones through the mirror. Ambrose licked up my neck while keeping my gaze. His hand dipped between my legs. My mate g*****d against me when he pushed his fingers through my folds.

“I want to taste you.” He told me.

“W-where is Tate?” I asked him.

“Let me taste you.” He said ignoring my question.

“But.. what about Tate?” I tried again.

If Tate isn’t here, great, I am for this. But… He should be here. Where is he?

Ambrose fangs protruded. I could see them stick out from his top l*p. It’s f*****g hot. He brushed them against my skin and I shuttered. I’ve never wanted something so badly in my life.

“Tell me you want me to taste you.” He whispered in my ear.

I can’t.. I can’t let him until I know where our son is. The simple fact that he keeps ignoring my questions is worrisome.

“Ambrose…” I said in a dangerous tone.

My mate smiled against my skin almost like this was a game to him.

“Where is our son?” I asked.

It was like a cold bucket of water was tossed over him. There was some kind of snap that came through our bond. Ambrose shook his head and looked around. He met my eyes in the mirror and his eyes went wide as he took in the scene. My mate blushed fiercely and removed his hands from my body. I frowned as he took a couple steps back.

“I… I don’t remember coming in here.” He admitted to me.

I turned around and gave him a confused look.

“Huh? What do you mean you don’t remember? Where is Tate?” I asked.

“We were cooking dinner.. I had just turned the burner off.. That was the last thing I rememer.” He told me.

My eyes went wide but Ambrose waved his hands in front of him before I could freak out.

“He’s fine baby I promise. I can hear him in the living room watching TV and playing. Actually, I can hear his stomach growling too.” He told me.

I blew out a breath.

“As long as he is okay.” I said.

“Epperly, I don’t understand. What happened when I got in here? What was I acting like?” My mate asked me.

My face heated.

“Uhm.. well.. I didn’t exactly see you come in.” I told him.

Ambrose furrowed his brow.

“Well, when did you notice me then?” He asked.

“When I realized you were actually kissing and touching me and I wasn’t just imagining it.” I told him.

Ambrose blinked at me for a moment.

“So, you were imagining me touching and kissing you, and then I show up completely in a trance to touch and k**s you. I just left our son and tried to feed from you-“

“You can still feed from me if you want.” I said and then bit my bottom l*p.

What is it about him feeding from me that makes me so hot? I want it so bad. Even if we don’t have s*x. I just want to know what it feels like.

Again, my mate blinked at me.

“What the hell is going on with you?” He asked me.

I frowned and crossed my arms.

“What is that supposed to mean?” I asked angrily.

I don’t even know why I asked that. It’s been extremely clear to me for days now that something is going on with me. My emotions are all over the place, I can’t keep my hands off of Ambrose, it’s like I’m horny 24/7, and my appetite has been ridiculous lately.

Ambrose raised a brow at me.

“You’ve been acting weird. Your emotions through our bond are intense and constantly switching, you’re unbelievably horny, you’ve been eating a lot, and you’ve been putting me under this trance every time that you think about me.” He said.

“I’m not saying that it’s a bad thing baby. I will gladly f**k you when ever you want as long as we have time and our son is taken care of. I’ll feed you every hour on the hour if that’s what you want too but… I just need to know that you’re okay.” He told me.

My bottom l*p started to tremble as tears filled my eyes.

“I-I-I’m sorry.” I stuttered out as the tears started to fall.

“Baby don’t cry.” Ambrose said as he pulled me into his arms.

“I d-d-don’t know w-what’s wrong w-w-with me-e-e.” I blubbered out.

“Don’t worry baby we will figure it out.” Ambrose said.

He tucked his face in the crook of my neck and inhaled deeply. A calming wave rushed over me and all of my tears disappeared. I sighed just as Ambrose froze. He pulled back from me and stared at me with wide eyes. Then he started sniffing all over me making me giggle.

“What are you doing?” I asked him.

Ambrose got on his knees and moved my robe out of the way. He pressed his ear to my stomach. I frowned down at him.

“What are you doing?” I asked again.

Ambrose looked up at me with awe in his eyes. His mouth opened and closed again. I was starting to get worried. Is there something wrong with me?

“Baby…” Ambrose finally managed words.

“You’re pregnant.”