Betrayed By Everyone, Loved By Four
Betrayed By Everyone Loved by Four Bonus Chapter 14

Milo's P.O.V.

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I shouldn't of said that shit to Millie last night. It's all I've been thinking about all day. I've been trying to keep my focus, but.. The guilt has been consuming me.

I just wanted to finish my work. Millie doesn't understand at all how distracting she is for me. Too much time alone, and.. All I think about is ripping her clothes off.

I barely ever get to touch her these days. I know that it's mostly my fault though. Still, I have to stay focused on my education.

When school first started, I thought I was balancing everything out well. Sure, I could have studied more, but I was doing fine. My grades were good, I got all the time with Millie I could ask for. Things were going well.

Then I started to fall behind. I forgot to turn in a paper for one of my classes that was worth a big chunk of my grade. I failed a test from another class. I had to ask two of my professors if I could do some kind of extra credit. To which both told me no.

The news got back to my mother. Being the nosey woman she is.. She speaks with my professors here and there. Mostly so that she knows what to do with me at the hospital on the weekends. Mom wants to stay on track to what I am learning. Something about it helping more.

Mom was furious when she found out I was slacking. I didn't mean to slack.. It just kind of happened. That didn't stop the almost hour long lecture I got from her though.

I wanted to talk to the others about it, but.. They were all doing so well. Millie never has a problem with anything. She's the smartest person in the world. Same with Oliver. I'm pretty sure neither of them even have to study.

Leo has his little program, and Atlas was always so excited about his schooling. I just couldn't bring myself to admit my failures.

So, I threw myself into my school work. I made sure that I never missed another assignment, and I passed every test. As more time went on, my schooling got more intense. It's a lot to keep up with.

When Millie tried to talk to me last night, I knew she was right. I need to take breaks. I keep falling asleep in my office, instead of in my bed. I'm surviving on nothing but coffee, and pure will. I can't remember the last time I joined my partners for a meal. I miss them all. I even miss Atlas kissing me. It's been so long since I've just relaxed with them.

Though I doubt that Millie wants to hang out with me now. After I pretty much told her to fuck off last night. I still can't believe I did that. I can't believe that Leo didn't bust in to yell at me either. Millie must not have told him about it. Which makes me feel even worse for some reason.

"Milo, please go check on the patient in room 307." Mom told me.

I gave her a nod, and headed towards the room. I'm not allowed to do much, since I'm pretty much just a volunteer. Although, I am allowed to check in on patients to see how they are doing. I can't check their charts, or vitals, but if something looks wrong I can tell Mom.

This patient has been having dizzy spells. Mom has had me check in on him on and off all day. I think the old man just feels comfortable with me.

Next month I take some exams for a few of my classes though. After I pass them I will be able to do more here, and it'll get me pushed ahead in my other classes. Perks of having a doctor as a mom.

For some reason, in my head, I thought that as long as I could make it to that I would be at the same level as my partners. That after I passed those exams, this depression and anxiety would start to dissipate some. I would finally be worthy of them. That might have been true until last night. God, I am such an idiot. I really couldn't have taken one night off to spend with Millie?

I left the patient's room to search for Mom. I need her to give me more to do. So that I can get my mind off of everything.

My phone started to buzz in my pocket. It was doing that the entire time I was with this last patient. Who the hell is blowing my phone up like this?

I ducked into a store room, and pulled my phone out. Shit, it's Leo. Part of me feels like I shouldn't answer it. I don't have time for punishments though. "What?" I answered.

"What the hell is your problem?" Leo gritted out.

"I'm busy Leo. You've been blowing my phone up while I'm with patients." I bit back.

Leo scoffed.

"We both know that you could have stepped away to answer your phone." He said.

I sighed as I pinched the bridge of my nose.

"What is it Leo? I need to get back to work." I asked.

"Did you tell Millie that you needed space last night, and to leave you alone?" He asked outright.

I sighed again.

"I didn't mean it as bad as it sounds. I was trying to study." I defended myself.

Though, it sounds more like an excuse.

"Are you crazy? Have you lost your damn mind Milo?" Leo asked.

I huffed through the line.

"Do you even know how Millie was feeling last night? That she was all alone because of us? That she cried herself to sleep because we all left her?" He asked. What?

"What are you talking about? You woke me up, and dragged me to bed with.. just the two of you.." I said as I realized it.

When Leo had woken me up I was so sleepy that he had to half carry me. I crawled right into bed, in my clothes, and snuggled up to Millie. I felt Leo get in behind me, but now that I think about it.. "Where the hell were Atlas and Oli?" I asked.

Leo sighed heavily.

"Look, Millie and I got in a really big fight before she went home. I found her in the library with another guy-"

"Another guy?" I asked interrupting him.

"It's a long story Milo. She's just tutoring him, but the fucker has a thing for her. Then she found out about Teresa-" "Who the hell is Teresa?" I asked.

"I told you about her. Remember? You called my phone one night, and she answered?" He asked.

"You didn't tell our other partners about her?" I asked incredulously.

"Yeah Milo, I know. I fucked up." Leo gritted out. "Anyways, before I could explain anything, Millie stormed off. Oli stayed the night with some of his friends-"

"Oli didn't come home at all?" I interrupted.

Leo sighed heavily again. He's probably so annoyed with my constant interrupting. I feel so left out of the loop.

"No he did not. One of his friends made this sea turtle thing that he wanted to get for Millie. The deal was that he drink with them. He came home first thing this morning, and made it up to our girl." Leo told me. "Good." I breathed out. "Wait, what about Atlas? He was home when I got home yesterday." I asked.

"Atlas got a call from his teacher. Apparently, he was asked to help out at his teacher's resturaunt. There was some kind of emergency. He left in a rush, and didn't make it home until almost 3 in the morning." He told me. Shit.. So when Millie came back to see me again.. It was because I was the only one home.. And I told her..

"Shit." I muttered. "Where were you at all night? You said she cried herself to sleep." I asked.

Leo sighed yet again.

"I went out for drinks with the people from my program. I only planned to stay for one drink, but time got away from me. I came home to find her alone in our bed. We all figured out the rest this morning." He told me.

I blew out a breath as everything Leo told me sunk in. My poor cupcake. We told her to take this chance with us. To move in with us. That we would make things work. Yet, I've been ignoring all of them.

"I told her that I was going to get you to come home early so that we could all do something before Lila and Caleb come over for dinner." He told me. "Leo, I-"

"Do you want to know what she said in response?" He interrupted to ask.

I sighed.

"What?" I asked.

I'm sure that she got excited over that. It's been so long since the five of us have done anything together. I don't want to disappoint her, but-

"She told me not to." Leo stated.

Wait, what?

"She told me not to bother you because of what you said to her last night. Millie told me that she didn't want to make things worse between the two of you." He told me.

I couldn't even respond.

"Oh, and that was after she sobbed to Oliver in the shower about how we are all drifting apart, and she's scared to lose us." Leo added.

"Fuck.." I muttered.

"Yeah, fuck." Leo agreed. "I won't force you to come home, because Millie asked me not to Milo, but.. You should make the decision for yourself. I know you're busy, we all are, but we need to make time for each other if we want this to work. Millie doesn't deserve to feel the way she does. We should be able to balance our new lives without making our girlfriend feel like we don't want her anymore. Think about that for a bit Milo." He said.

Then Leo hung up. Leaving me completely stunned. I fucked up worse than I thought. I need to fix this. Leo is right. I need to find a better balance.

I rushed out of the storage room, and nearly knocked my mom over.

"Jesus Milo." Mom said. "Why were you in the-"

"Mom." I interrupted. "I need to go for the day."